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i feel terrible today. my girlfriend of 1.5 years, who has been the only person to ever take me away from it all, is having her doubts about us. i have the most difficult time making decisions, it is almost impossible sometimes. it is like i have a handicap with decision making - which only showed up after dp/dr. we are both in our 20's, and getting stuff in line with careers, she is pretty much on the path she wants to be on - and i am struggling with the first step. she feels like she has to constantly push me along with stepping up and making choices, and it is begining to burden her. i really don't know what i could have said to her. i am who i am, and i am better then what i was years ago. but i don't know when my situation would be better, where that stress on her part will be gone. it really hurt when she brought that to my attention, b/c i realized that dp/dr can effect an area of my life that i thoght was immune to it. plus, it also made me realize how unstable my life is and there is a chance it will always be this way. we haven't spoken since last night, and even though no break up was made - it feels like that is in the cards.