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After many years of being almost free of the 'sensations' or having gotten used to them, not sure which I am at a complete loss.
I am aware that something isn't ok so I must have some form of reality checking intact but other than that I can't find the word to describe what is happening to me.
The more I read on this forum the more I feel that my situation differs from the core of people that have used this forum over the years.
My brain cannot process my surroundings, It seems to not be able to focus on issues around time, location and spacial awareness.
When I am travelling I get confused where I am, I can be on a road and feel I am somewhere else until my logic brain reminds me where I started and where I am heading.
I can be in a room completing a 'simple' task and nothing else exists, I am completely within that moment and my 'conciousness' disappears.
I know I am still me, when at home if I am talking to someone on the phone it's like everything is normal, I have emotions, feeling, desires and wants. I am not numb I do not feel detached from my body.
My issues appears to be that my brain cannot process what reality is, cannot process more than a simple amount of information.
This has been getting progressively worse for a number of months now, and despite me having time away from work and having a 'breakdown' I took the pils, ate better, slept better, distracted and tried to keep positive outlook.
Im stuck, I can't function and I know know how to help because I don't know what's wrong. I can't find the words to Google or something that can help me relate.
I feel like I'm loosing hope, I'm tired
I am aware that something isn't ok so I must have some form of reality checking intact but other than that I can't find the word to describe what is happening to me.
The more I read on this forum the more I feel that my situation differs from the core of people that have used this forum over the years.
My brain cannot process my surroundings, It seems to not be able to focus on issues around time, location and spacial awareness.
When I am travelling I get confused where I am, I can be on a road and feel I am somewhere else until my logic brain reminds me where I started and where I am heading.
I can be in a room completing a 'simple' task and nothing else exists, I am completely within that moment and my 'conciousness' disappears.
I know I am still me, when at home if I am talking to someone on the phone it's like everything is normal, I have emotions, feeling, desires and wants. I am not numb I do not feel detached from my body.
My issues appears to be that my brain cannot process what reality is, cannot process more than a simple amount of information.
This has been getting progressively worse for a number of months now, and despite me having time away from work and having a 'breakdown' I took the pils, ate better, slept better, distracted and tried to keep positive outlook.
Im stuck, I can't function and I know know how to help because I don't know what's wrong. I can't find the words to Google or something that can help me relate.
I feel like I'm loosing hope, I'm tired
