lonely

Ever since Spring got here I've been feeling somewhat lonely. I miss having someone to hold and kiss. I don't necessarily miss sex any more than I always do, I just miss kissing and hugging. lol. And I know I could never be in a relationship right now because I have so much that I need to work out by myself these days. I just look around and everyone has someone except me. And I wonder are there other lonely people sitting at home wishing the same thing. But of course there are. But it's just so hard having all this panic and dp/dr stuff and handling relationships. I don't get how you guys do it. Enlighten me. You all are always talking about new people you meet and new relationships and it just amazes me because all of that seems so unattainable to me right now.

How to fight loneliness
Smile all the time
Shine your teeth til meaningless
Sharpen them with lies

And whatevers going down
Will follow you around
Thats how you fight loneliness
You laugh at every joke
Drag your blanket blindly
Fill your heart with smoke
And the first thing that you want
Will be the last thing you ever need
Thats how you fight it

Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time

To top it all off I just babysat this Maltese puppy for the weekend and just gave him back and he was so cute but very needy and clingy so I had to be holding him the whole time he was here. But he was the sweetest puppy in the whole world. And now I miss him! It's official, I'm gonna die alone.