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Does anyone else on this forum seem to be bored out of their fucking minds? Cause I know I am. It's like I'm stuck in the house and all the old things that used to grab my attention don't do so anymore. I'm also lonely and I feel like I am alone in the world. Sitting inside the house seems to me like a self-defeatist kind of thing. And I can't motivate myself enough, I end up sleeping some portion of the day on the couch without anything to do. It really is a nuissance. Any advice? I know people say focus outward but then again my boredom comes and sweeps me away into the abyss. Unknowing of any other things to do, can't be myself. Don't even know what it's like to be myself again. Things aren't looking up. Plus I have an appointment with a shrink this monday (halloween) HAPPY HALLOWEEN by the way. Anyway my medications aren't working as they're supposed to and I feel some let down in that department.
 

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well uh.... there is one thing I do know....If you do nothing all day crap will just get worse. They did a study on old people that just sit around all day and watch the cars pass by on the porch and found that when they did an MRI on their head certain parts of the brain got dark that wasnt dark before.

The brain went into some type of standby mode...

Anyway, point is no matter how hard it is to get out and do something...you got to do it....AND I know how hard it is to even get up, because I was there! But there are those 30 minutes or a few hours out of the day where you do feel a little better, and those are the times you should get up and go for a walk...start a hobby, exercise...crap like that.
 

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baby steps my friend...baby steps.
 

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Universal. Some others here may say it is solely up to us to not be bored, but I relate well to your post. For along time I have tried hard to be involved in the good and fun things of life. Developed relationships, got engaged, started hunting and fishing, biking, sports, wieght training, botanical pursuits, naturalist pursuits, guitar and many others. I have enjoyed all of these but there always comes a point to which I realize that I really am not FULLY into any of these things. I can go far with my passions and then they subside. When my symptoms creep in I can temporarily toss any of these interests out the window. When I am feeling "normal" I am gungho, when I am off to dp/dr limbo land I lose alot of it, and this in turn drives my friends nuts. My interest is there but the detachment comes and goes. This is with people and things and activites alike. I am not saying I turn on and off, I am saying that these symptoms put a blanket over my enjoyment, participation and awareness.

Those I am with are gungho about all we do. I just want to go home many times. I blame this mostly on my dp/dr, and also I guess this low level depression that alot of seem to have. It is as if I try and know how to be happy but cannot get there without this "thing" holding me back from total engagement in what I am doing. Even exilerating things like climbing a moutian, when I get to the top I say "oh" that was neat and life goes on its dp/dr way. I have learned to live with this diminished sense of involvement and enjpyment, but it really astounds me to see people who truly are passionate and love life and have few boring moments. Boredom is huge in my life and is what has helped lead me to drink in the past.
And lonliness is the obvious result of all the above.

Even without symptoms it is hard to fully connect with something or someone as I see others do the same and want to do the same with me. But the times when I do connect, it is wonderful, and all in all I cannot complain too bad because there is so much to enjoy in life that even bits and pieces are worth it.
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I'm bored out of my fucking skull. Especially on weekends. This is when things get bad. During these hours of doing absolutely nothing. This is the height of apathy, little to no interest in anything. I need something to remind me that I'm alive. Otherwise its like being a walking corpse.

Its like sensory deprivation. My brain starts to invent things to eb scared about, probably out of a need for stimulation. Only thing to think about is the intensity of the disconnection and the meaninglessness.
 

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i agree, weekends are definitely the worst. back when i was 'normal', i used to be excited about the weekend, hanging out with my friends, etc., but now i dread them. boredom just leads to scary thoughts.
 

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Mr. Mortgage, can you post some stuff about your recovery? I think it'll help lift the mood up a bit. 8)

and jft i thank you deeply for your comments, it helps knowing i'm not alone out here.
 

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the persistent emptyness you are describing is dysthynia,adhedonhia,or quite simply emotional apathy.this characterises the feeling,or lack of feeling we feel every minute of every day,like going to a football game,your team wins and you feel nothing.you are satisfied on a very superficial level.it is prevailent in most if not all mental illnesses.this is the final hurdle for me in my recovery,as ive come to terms with every other issue of dp/dr.i think we must continue the distracting techniques and outward focusing.im doing my own research at the moment into this lingering condition,and will keep you posted on my findings,although i suspect no miracle answers for it.one day i hope to feel passionate about things again,maybe the answer lies in some form of emotional liberation therapy.maybe our struggle to express ourselves over time led to this situation.i cant accept that anyone was born with this angst and soulsearching,not even the greatest philosophers and writers.maybe these guys were only writing when they were having bad days and not on good ones!!
 

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anyone else lonely and bored? apathy? not getting enough exercise? things keeping you on that couch? tough noggies?

if this aplies to you please respond here :shock: :(
 

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me too.
in the old days i used to love being alone. i would always find something to do.
now without my friends things just get worse
how normal is that?
 

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Universal said:
can someone please resurrect this thread? ohi guess i just did :( ....
I will. Boredam at work kills me. It allows me to get caught in my thoughts. I think boredam period makes my mind scared to death. But yet when I feel this way I just want to be alone and have NO energy to do anything. It's a vicious circle!
 
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