[university girl]

K, I know it sounds a little corny but I've been wanting to do this personally for a while, as some form of release. Here's how DP has made me feel during the last 10 years:

anger
betrayal
frustration
uncertainty
fear
fright
lonliness
sad
worried
anxious
loss
confused
paranoid
guilt
hopelessness
surprise
longing
and now... I am at a stage where I am grieving the loss of my previous life but beginning to accept this one.

Hope you find some sort of benefit in listing your own emotions.

 

[falling_free]

I believe ive only had dp/dr for about a year of so, though im preety sure ive had a kind of minor dp for a while before i took drugs, anyway heres my list

feel isolated
disconnected
empty
emotionless
unfocused anger
confusion
paranoid
guilty

 

[Guest]

Damn, Uni-g, you just listed all my emotions.
I have nothing to add, actually.

 

[dreamcatcher]

dp makes me feel:

angry
lonley
paranoid
guilty
lost
isolated
agraphobic
scared
empty
helpless
upset
tearful
fearful

and as u say uni g......i feel like i am grieving for the loss of myself

 

[shadowness]

lost
lonley
paranoid
guilty
agraphobic
scared
empty
helpless
upset
fearful
isolated
numb
disconnected
confused
worried
angry
hopeless
tired
frustrated
lazy
sick
bewildered

 

[Guest]

brain fog.

 

[Guest]

terror
sadness
confusion
lonliness
fear
anxiety
loss
anger

 

[person3]

You guys realize that normal people have these emotions too?

just something to think about...

Maybe this is just the bad side of our humanness...we only want the good side and can't accept the bad side. I dunno. I could be talking out of my a$$.

 

[university girl]

person3... yeah, you sure are right... 'normal' people do have these emotions... but I am quite positive they have them must less than myself. The emotions I listed are intense and way, way, way too frequent to be considered 'normal' or healthy.

Uni-G

 

[Guest]

fear fear fear fear feart fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fearfear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear rear fear fear fear fear fear fear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!depression depression and hopelessness...which is a greater fear!

 

[Beth]

I don't think normal people feel that type of terror, even in extreme situations they don't feel that timeless claustrophobic huge amount of terror. And you probably have to be some kind of neurotic to feel that type of worry. Even that type of relief, when you touch something and it feels really real, or can really appreciate the beauty of everything in the world because it seems to actually be there for once and almost glows with it, I think that's outside the range of what most people experience.