Not sure what else to say really. It's not the DP anymore, I couldn't care less about that... This journey of finding myself is extremely difficult right now. Health is wealth and I definitely took mine for granted years ago.. really didn't bother taking care of myself and now I find myself in an unfortunate set of circumstances because of it. Insecurity really robs you of any sort of enjoyment in anything. Financially, didn't think at all about that before and now that's really biting me too. I created my situation because my head wasn't in the game. One thing after another keeps happening and it's like hard to keep taking punches, eventually you just fall. IDK. I just hate feeling like something has to give but it never does.
I don't even know how to make the best of this situation, it sometimes feels literally impossible. Idk what im supposed to be doing right now with my current resources, but im begging for clarity.