I feel you, but we have to keep fighting. Like Rocky says "It's not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get and keep moving forward" I was almost out of it a month ago now I'm back in the rut but I know that we can all get better. I believe with the right circumstances your body can heal from anything. We just have to give it the time it needs to heal. Now that doesn't mean sitting at home all day and waiting for yourself to heal. Go out and do what you love. That's what helped me and made me feel like I was actually out of this thing. But of course my own dumb mind brought me right back into the hole. But I promise that it is possible to get better. We just need to try everything and eventually you'll find something that works for you. Personally what helped me was YouTube and watching my favorite people and also Dragon Ball Super helped me as well. It aloud me to look forward to something every week. Now I'm trying to get that back again. And I think I will it might just take some time! But that's all it takes, time.