[Le9ase]

Don't certainly know if it's relevant to this. Just wondering. I experience a high libido. Issue is I don't feel anchored to sexual interactions with others or my awareness of someone's physical appeal. Also I don't care for sex with others. I've considered gray asexuality (e.g. demisexuality), especially after remembering that arousal does not indicate one's desire to pursue sex with another. Still, I've envisioned intimacy with people I do and don't know, albeit with intentional self-imposed limits (too much detail and I disconnect). While I generally don't aim to get involved until I really give a damn about someone, I've dissociated intensely once such interactions begin. I've never wanted to participate so much as I drift off and let physiology do the rest. I remember thinking to myself a time after a similar event occurred that "I don't know who to be to say 'no.'"

I wonder if feeling out of touch with your sexuality to an extent is a symptom of DPDR. Perhaps I am somewhat asexual. It seems my libido will speak for me, but I'll always argue with it over how I am really thinking. It's like a different person. Anyone's experiences on this should set me on to some perspective.

 

[Chip1021]

Sexuality has been weird for me too, but I think it's just an extension of how human interactions in general are rather weird for me, and I enjoy the contents of my daydreams and ideas more than actually being with others (pretty exhausting, to be honest).

I relate to some of what you say. A lot of it, actually, if I'm understanding you correctly. For me, I was always curious about it. Growing up I had a lot of fantasies I didn't think I would ever be able to pursue (gay fantasies, and this was about at that time when being gay started to become more generally acceptable to the public, but not quite there yet...how things have changed). But then when I actually was with someone for the first time, I just thought...is this it? I didn't really feel much of anything physically, though I enjoyed it in a psychological or existential way. And of course, my body did respond. Didn't know what I was expecting it to be or feel like, but the way other people talk about it....I'm just not sure.

I'm definitely not asexual though. I have clear affectionate and sexual attractions for members of my sex, and not for the opposite. That's one thing I do know about me. But the act of sex itself is definitely strange. I've never heard the terms "grey asexuality" or "demisexuality" before, so can't really comment on that part.

 

[esroh]

im just really horny all the time.need to find me some sweet walls lol

 

[Tyree225]

For me I still want sex but it dose not feel as good as I did. It's like every time it starts to feel good I like feel removed from my body, even my orgasms feel dull