lets disuss... DRUGS

I can appriciate people will disagree with drug taking after getting DP/DR and thats totally understandable as it is more than likley a step backwards when it comes to recovery and if this is you please refrain from hate commenting! Those who havent managed to shake the habit what are your views on the subject. Personally, i am never touching weed again as i think freaking out while eating edible cannabis in amsterdam had a small part to blame when it omes to my DP/DR. I used to do a lot of coke before i got this, and funny enough doing this gives me such relief it makes me feel alive, in the room and ike i can think clearly and not about my DP, jut connect with people. I have only done it 3 times in the 5 months i have had depersonalisation and have really had difficulty staying away from it but feel proud I have managed to cut down so much. I wonder if this has something to do with DP does anyone know what neurotransmitters coke plays with, dopamine? I read a forum once which said coke and stimulants work on dopamine and adrenaline and that plays a part for some people who may be low in it helping them and treatments like Wellbutrin would benefit them where as people who do well with weed and alcohol have a serotonin problem and SSRIS would help them. I'm really confused as to what neurotransmitters are not behaving in my brain and how I should be addressing this!!! I find when I drink alcohol I feel more detached like my legs are made of jelly and people are monsters and I just feel seriously stoned but the coke seems to sort me out. I have stayed away from MDMA and anything else along those lines for I also read tht could have been the cause of my visual snow and, I know they would definitely not help me. Whats everyones thoughts on this???? Do you have a drug that helps/worsens your DP or anyone know much about the neurotransmitters?