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So, I'm pretty sure I'm almost fully rid of my dp/dr and I feel so wonderful only after a short 3 weeks that felt like a year.
I couldn't leave the house the first week, got brought to the mental hospital because I was having suicidal thoughts because I didn't want to feel like that, I was convinced I was in purgatory at one point, heaven at another point, I'd see fuzzyness so bad that in my prefferal vision it would look like bugs jumping all around the grass, I couldn't drive, I couldn't sleep. But that's all changed.
I'm the person you would have never guessed to have anxiety I'm always fun loving and carefree, but didn't realize how much I was holding in and how much my reactions and actions affected me and my mind, when I got dp/dr I was like " what the heck? How?! I don't have any stress in my life I love my life I do everything right and don't let stuff stress me out" well, I was wrong, the stuff I've learned that I didn't think would help is excactly what pulled me out of this terrible feeling.
I've read this book " from panick to power" by Lucinda Bassett, I'm only half way through and she teaches you how to redirect your thoughts, confront your problems, and instead of having an anxiety attack, you attack your anxiety. The stuff I learned so far and I'm only half way through has helped me IMMENSELY . I also started gabapentin 3 times a day along with lamictal for my bipolar disorder I've only been on it for 8 days, I stopped drinking and smoking marijuana, cigarettes seem to help though. But my point is to make a full recovery you have to live life as it's normal and that is what I am going to do the next few weeks .

I am going to come back and help as much as I can. I'll study highlight and post paragraphs from the book that's helped me, I'll observe when I have dp/dr and write down how I stopped it what I was thinking of that stopped it how I redirected my thoughts. And I'm going to come back on this website that's gotten me through the hardest time of my life to help everyone. Much love, see you all before you know it, and thank you so much. If it wasn't for this site I don't want to know what could have gone wrong.
 

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So, I'm pretty sure I'm almost fully rid of my dp/dr and I feel so wonderful only after a short 3 weeks that felt like a year.
I couldn't leave the house the first week, got brought to the mental hospital because I was having suicidal thoughts because I didn't want to feel like that, I was convinced I was in purgatory at one point, heaven at another point, I'd see fuzzyness so bad that in my prefferal vision it would look like bugs jumping all around the grass, I couldn't drive, I couldn't sleep. But that's all changed.
I'm the person you would have never guessed to have anxiety I'm always fun loving and carefree, but didn't realize how much I was holding in and how much my reactions and actions affected me and my mind, when I got dp/dr I was like " what the heck? How?! I don't have any stress in my life I love my life I do everything right and don't let stuff stress me out" well, I was wrong, the stuff I've learned that I didn't think would help is excactly what pulled me out of this terrible feeling.
I've read this book " from panick to power" by Lucinda Bassett, I'm only half way through and she teaches you how to redirect your thoughts, confront your problems, and instead of having an anxiety attack, you attack your anxiety. The stuff I learned so far and I'm only half way through has helped me IMMENSELY . I also started gabapentin 3 times a day along with lamictal for my bipolar disorder I've only been on it for 8 days, I stopped drinking and smoking marijuana, cigarettes seem to help though. But my point is to make a full recovery you have to live life as it's normal and that is what I am going to do the next few weeks .

I am going to come back and help as much as I can. I'll study highlight and post paragraphs from the book that's helped me, I'll observe when I have dp/dr and write down how I stopped it what I was thinking of that stopped it how I redirected my thoughts. And I'm going to come back on this website that's gotten me through the hardest time of my life to help everyone. Much love, see you all before you know it, and thank you so much. If it wasn't for this site I don't want to know what could have gone wrong.
Did the gabapentin help you recover? I was suppose to take that and stopped after one day because it just sent my Dp/dr symptoms through the roof
 

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Did the gabapentin help you recover? I was suppose to take that and stopped after one day because it just sent my Dp/dr symptoms through the roof
It got worse before better, I'm two weeks in and fully recovered, it takes a bit fit I to get into your system. It made my symptoms worse and spiked it just because I expected it to work right away, stay on it!!
 

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It got worse before better, I'm two weeks in and fully recovered, it takes a bit fit I to get into your system. It made my symptoms worse and spiked it just because I expected it to work right away, stay on it!!
Now I regret not staying on it. I'm on Effexor now. Started 20 days ago. Did they give you the gabapentin for anxiety? I thought it was weird that he gave me a seizure medication for this hell... I wish I would have known that it actually works for Dp/dr. I feel shitty now
 

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Now I regret not staying on it. I'm on Effexor now. Started 20 days ago. Did they give you the gabapentin for anxiety? I thought it was weird that he gave me a seizure medication for this hell... I wish I would have known that it actually works for Dp/dr. I feel shitty now
Actually Effexor was the first one to get rid of my anxiety that was this bad if not worse 7 years ago I was only 14. But as time went on I developed bipolar disorder and the Effexor interacts with it and my extreme highs were even higher and my lows were devastating so I am on bipolar medicine now ( it's used for seizures too) and used for anxiety, and the gabapentin doesn't interact with my bipolar meds or make me do what I did before . I did so good on the Effexor I haven't been on my meds for two years because I was coping so well with my anxiety. I swear by that stuff. If I could still take it I would . The only reason my anxiety is back is because I had a terrible trip on lsd and thought I died and instead of our brains confronting the problems we have we turn them to scary thoughts.

That's the start of recovering too. If you think about the problems you have going on and confront them it'll help a ton. Even little things. I went from being suicidal my first day of dp/dr to only having it a few times a day now and redirecting my thoughts so I feel better. You can't block out the thoughts but you can change them and think about the real problems going on which will make you feel more grounded. Don't stop working or going to school and don't stop socializing. Also eating healthier gives your body more energy. When I was really bad I'd think of the "real" almost problems, even the littlest thing can set you off. So I start with am I hungry? I'll try to eat. Didn't work so am I tired? I'll try to sleep. Didn't work? So I must not be comfortable let me change. Still not working? I'll try sleeping, I'll feel better tomorrow . That's a mild form of redirection. I haven't gotten to exercising yet I think it would help but I'm still a lazy 21 year old girl that likes to sit around watching Netflix or painting but I'm usually at my boyfriends with him and his 3 roommates so I socialize a lot and it makes me feel better talking to people. Confront your anxiety and accept it, it's natural that we're doing this and you'll get through it. Stick to the Effexor.

Also one last suggestion is to get the book " from panick to power" by Lucinda Bassett. That book has helped me more than anything. The author went through anxiety so bad her entire life then ended up researching it and she's now a public speaker and in an attacking anxiety program and helps people out, plus an author at that. She covers a lot of stuff in the book I'm not even finished with it and I'm shipping it to my cousin in sc to help with her anxiety because we have the same thing going on. She says some things like " turn your negative thoughts into positives" and to do that (which helped me a lot ) she gave a few examples on what to write down so I'll give you a few .

Write down your worry:
This is my actual worry.
" I'm scared I'm going to go crazy, forget words, that I'm dead, I don't feel real"
My positive response to myself:
" you know what this is. It's just anxiety and it's impossible for me to go crazy when i just have anxiety and bipolar.i know you're real, that this is my room, I can touch my walls and my bed so it's not just in my mind."

" I'm lightheaded and don't want to sleep, I'm scared."
" there is nothing to be scared of, it's just anxiety again. Maybe I'm tired, I should try sleeping because I KNOW I will feel better tomorrow. "

" I'm scared I'll be like this forever"
" again it's just anxiety talking. What's bothering me right now? I should think of that and fix it, I felt 100% normal at least a few hours out of the day yesterday so I'm obviously getting better. I really need to give myself some credit."

And one more thing I learned that I will use from the book though because mines a bit personal ;

Write down your biggest fears , don't worry about how bad they are or if it triggers anxiety .

She put " am I going crazy? Is this the time I snap ? What willl happen to me if I do? Will my family still love me? Will I try to take my life before then?"

Now write down a humorous paragraph about your thought

She also put " I am going to imagine myself going bananas. I am going to imagine that I am running around the streets in an ape suit, trying to overdose on jelly beans and kissing random people then passing out bananas.

Now read that ten times a day the next two weeks until it gets old.
It made me chuckle when I read that haha. But if you ever need any help or want to talk continuously just keep quoting my posts, I'll be checking for you. If you have any questions about any scary thoughts just ask me and don't be embarrassed especially on this website because 1. I bet I've had the same thought, I went in depth when my dr was bad and2. That's what this site is for and no one knows your identity. Sometimes keeping a thought in and not questioning it harms you more than talking. I read as well this lady came to her crying saying" I'm having thoughts about hurting my kids what's wrong with me" and Lucinda replied " the fact that you're having those thoughts and are scared of having them shows that you know the thoughts are wrong, your anxiety does anything and everything to distract you. An actual "crazy" person would just think those thoughts were ok, and you obviously don't".

I hope this helped. How are you feeling today? Pour it all out.
 

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And even if one medication says one thing doesn't mean it's not used for others. My limictal is for seizures but used for bipolar and anxiety. Gabapentin is used as a muscle relaxant as I recall and it's used for anxiety too. And yes they did.
 

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Now I regret not staying on it. I'm on Effexor now. Started 20 days ago. Did they give you the gabapentin for anxiety? I thought it was weird that he gave me a seizure medication for this hell... I wish I would have known that it actually works for Dp/dr. I feel shitty now
I just want you to know gabapentin is different for everyone, I'm currently weaning myself off as it made me feel more spacey, in going to therapy now and just knowing it's anxiety the dp dr is going away itself, I'm almost back to normal and that medication increased my symptoms after it was fully in my system, any medication is not needed for anxiety and I've come to learn that. It's hard but it'll get better if you let your thoughts sit, everyone has wierd thoughts it's normal. But the point of taking medication scared me knowing I'm putting in needed chemicals in my body . Eating healthy and detoxing my body of bad foods and now all I have to get out is this medicine. I realized it's all a mindset once I took my medicine the first few days and was like " I'm better! Then a doctor told me it doesn't get into your system for a month and a half so it was all in my head
 
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