[Imagine]

OK... I'm going to list my feelings:

Brain cannot consume images & sounds around me.

Everything has no meaning, hollow and lifeless.

Memory is bad, can't remember what I done on what day.

Having trouble remembering which day it is.

Constant outer body experiences, train of thought very detached and unreal also.

Words have no meaning, no structure.

Can't understand reality. (Extreme)

Warm tingly feelings all around my body, along with tighness in shoulders, arms and chest.

Hot & Cold sweats.

Mind goes blank every so often, like a reset.

Nausiated with dry heaves.

Faint, blackout out a few times yesterday, short black outs.

Distant look in my eyes sometimes as if i'm looking straight through something or someone.

Body sometimes feels light and airy or limp and heavy like a lifeless ragdoll.

All this led me to the E.R. yesterday... still got all of it today.

It's like my DP/DR has really hit its peak and not going to pass as it's just been ever growing as the days have went on.

 

[Guest]

I know exactly how you feel.
Do you suffer from anxiety and panic, it sounds as though you do.

What we must try to do is not fear it.
Believe me, I know how difficult that is but it is fed by fear.

I look back over the last 12 months and wonder how the hell I have functioned. But we have and we didnt go mad or drift off into never never land-one of my main fears!

I try to tell myself that it is just my brains way of distancing itself from anxiety. Our brain does this to protect us. It may seem weird, but it is true.

I dont know how long you have suffered with this awful symptom but I am here to help if you would like me too.
Please pm me if ever you need to talk.

We will get through this.

Jude

 

[Guest]

I agree. From my experience, once I learned what it was -- I learned to 1.) not fear it and let it happen 2.) to relax --anxiety only aggravatres it. and it will pass. And it does.

 

[Imagine]

The only thing I have done to help myself right now is stop alcohol.

I stopped on Wednesday... & I swear to god I'am never touching any alcohol for at least a year or two.

At the moment that is all I can do to help myself, I can't even sit and watch a movie.

EVERYTHING IS TO MUCH FOR ME TO TAKE IN. NOTHING IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING, NOTHING REALLY EXISTS.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THINGS ARE AND WHY THEY ARE.

I'm just gonna have to try and sleep, if I go through any more of this, I'll lose control of myself or go brain dead I swear.

4-5 yrs of DP/DR and I have known nothing like these feelings before.

It's worsening by the second, I don't see how it will be possible for it to pass - in the past I could see by bad episodes passing but sure as hell don't see it with this one.

 

[Imagine]

I'AM IN THE BOWELS OF HELL.

 

[Sojourner]

Imagine,

If you stopped drinking on this past Wednesday, I think it's important for you to understand that it takes time to get alcohol out of your system and to allow your body to heal.

All this time I didn't know you drank so much. I assumed your symptoms were DP only.

I would advise you right now to contact an alcohol recovery program in Glasgow for help during your withdrawal.

 

[Imagine]

I'am not craving or feeling I need alcohol, but could it be the withdrawal that has peaked my DP/DR?

Because I'am 100% Gone.

Alcohol can go to hell and die.

 

[livinginhell333]

imagine i feel most of those same feelings 24/7. i don't feel anxiety panic or really i don't feel anything. i just feel like i'm not hear. the first like 6 symptoms that u have i have them pretty bad. sounds are weird to me, like i'm not actually hearing them. i feel like my hearing really really sucks as well as every other sense, espiacially sense of smell. taste is still there, but not really. things never taste good to me. everything is alright as far as taste of food goes, sometimes there really isn't any taste to it. i hope we all get out of this hell hole one day and i hope they find a med that cures this crap. they should be doing more research on it.

 

[Sojourner]

Imagine,

Until you are "clean," you cannot know anything.

Are you a student, or do you work?

 

[Imagine]

I'm a student currently on a waiting list for some courses in college.

Right now I do nothing and when I bring myself to do so my reality caves in and I cannot function.

 

[Sojourner]

Imagine,

Well, I can tell from your posts that you are a smart person, so I know there's hope for you!

Now, are you in some kind of psychotherapy? I'll say the same thing I just said to Spaceplex:

You simply HAVE to get into psychotherapy and deal with the underlying causes of your anxiety.

That is the only road out of this for you and for anyone -- unless you irrationally think that something that has a cause will suddenly depart from you without your having made any changes within yourself.

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Some of the existing psychotherapeutic methods are described on this excellent site, which is extensive and might have a lot of pages that would interest you:

http://www.guidetopsychology.com/txtypes.htm

http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=n ... py+Glasgow

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[Imagine]

I think I will have to.

Or I will end up hospitalized.

Right now it feels as if I'm going blind, like I see the images but my brain isnt processing them.

 

[Sojourner]

Imagine,

For the next week or two, you'd be a very wise man if you just didn't try to do anything but nurture your body with good food, exercise if you have the energy, rest, and activities that are not too taxing.

Don't expect too much of yourself right now; while you are capable of a lot of wonderful things, allow yourself the time to heal.

Do not expect to feel good right now. You won't. Take all of the pressure off yourself for feeling fine. Feeling fine is right now impossible. But you can feel fine in the future, and you probably will.

I'd love to hear about your having made progress in finding help. There are many good online sources, too, that can provide you with some insights about your own situation and feelings.

You might want to look inside and make some notes about what you would talk about working on with a psychotherapist, or even keep a journal.

It is supremely important that you eat right during this time. Try to avoid "dark" visuals and "dark" music. You need soothing things and comfort food, things that make you calm.

I'm praying for you!! Please report on how you're doing, okay?

 

[Imagine]

OK man, thanks for your support.

At the moment I think I will have to go to sleep, because I just can;t function properly, I feel like I'm blackout out again and the severe unreality of everything is begining to take its toll.

 

[Sojourner]

Yes, have a good, restful sleep.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Just live through it. Don't give the DP what it wants. Let your body recover and be nice to your brain. You'll pull through.