[fingertingle]

The only thing I can think of is how I don't think. I CAN'T STOP. It's IMPOSSIBLE.

I'm brain dead....

The only other thought in my head is wondering whether dp/dr can escalate into schizophrenia. My sister's schizophrenic and associating with her is heartbreaking. She was the smartest person I'd ever met and buried somewhere deep inside the confines of her delusions, I know she still is.

It seems I have all the symptoms of schizophrenia, minus delusions and hallucinations. And I have a 9% greater chance of developing it. Could therapy ward it off? My sister was diagnosed at 23 and I'm almost 20.

I want to be analytical, articulate, fun to be around, active. I lead the most empty existence. I don't know how anyone can stand being around me.

 

[peacedove]

So is your sister a completely different person now or does she just have some episodes? I'm also worried of becoming schizophrenic... but I also wonder if it would really be so bad. I wonder if it's as scary as this constant DP I live in. And would I no longer be constantly DP'd if I turned schizophrenic...

Were there things that led up to her illness or did it just happen one day? I'm 23 too so that kinda makes me worry.

Sorry I'm not giving answers just more questions. You don't have to answer me if you don't want.

 

[fingertingle]

Yeah, my sister's done every drug in the universe except heroin -- and for about 8 years before anything happened. She had her first major episode shortly after she started doing coke and she got an abortion at this really shady underground clinic where they didn't even give her adequate drugs. She's a completely different person now always. She has the ability to act normal, but its just a front. When she's having an episode though, she's way beyond any sort of comprehension. Its horrible and I would never wish it upon anyone. At least her case. Just stay away from drugs, I guess that's common knowledge at this point.

 

[Luka]

I'm so sorry about your sister

I can understand your fear of becoming a schizofrenic and that it is fairly real for you (9% more change as you said). But look at David Bowie. Schizofrenia runs in his family and even his brother had it. David did use drugs (I don't know if you did), but never became schizofrenic.

Many people with DP/DR experience this lack of thoughts and have the fear that they become 'crazy' (like getting schizofrenia).