[Jgamepro]

I'm so tired of this. I just want it to stop. I know it's supposed to be linked to anxiety. But even when the anxiety's being treated the dp symptoms never let up. Not even for a second. And I'm on tons of meds already and all they seem to do is make it worse. Seroquel XR 50mg, Zyprexa 5mg and Trileptal 300mg.

It's so debilitating. Can't think. Can't concentrate. I can't even go out in public anymore without freaking out.
Lost almost all connections with friends and family. Sometimes I feel like dying or that I've already died and this is just someone walking around in my skin.

I have this constant feeling that something's off. My balance is bad and my visions distorted. Plz I just need help or some reassurance, however small, that this can get better. Any advice is appreciated. Thanx.

 

[Swansea]

Are you bipolar? I haven't seen any information on seroquel being effective for DP/DR. The meds I have seen that are effective for some people with this disorder and usually co-morbid anxiety and depression of some sort are ssris (lexapro, celexa, zoloft, paxil,etc), in conjuction wtih a benzodiazepine (usually kolonopin), and sometimes people to have succes wtih lamictal. Are you in therapy?

Also, I think it is really important to rule out any sort of other disorder like Lyme disease. There are some people on this board that suffered for many years with these type of symptoms and then found out they actually have lyme disease. It is important to get a full physical with blood work, etc.

 

[googleeyes]

I have this constant feeling that something's off. My balance is bad and my visions distorted.

This is pretty well how I feel. I have some dp/dr, although I have mostly beaten that, but the balance and vision never quite came back.

Was you vision and balance bad before the meds?

How did this all come about?

How long have you suffered for?

What do you mean by distorted vision?

 

[heartless]

Go to the idiot who prescribed you all of those schizophrenia meds and bitch slap him.

 

[googleeyes]

Go to the idiot who prescribed you all of those schizophrenia meds and bitch slap him.

Speaking to that. How did you get prescribed 2 anti-psychotics and an epileptic? If you are trying to treat anxiety why would you be on that mix?

You can defineitly get better; I would start by figuring out why you are on your medications and not something for anxiety.

 

[Jgamepro]

This is pretty well how I feel. I have some dp/dr, although I have mostly beaten that, but the balance and vision never quite came back.

Was you vision and balance bad before the meds?

How did this all come about?

How long have you suffered for?

What do you mean by distorted vision?

Well, I don't think it's necessarily a vision problem persay, it's more that my perception is off. Things feel tilted, fuzzy. It's not like a hallucination. I know what I'm seeing is normal it just looks weird to me for some reason. As most people would say, it feels "unreal." Not anchored in reality. Feels like your floating.

I'm sorry to hear about your vision/balance problems. But being honest I wish that was all this was. It affects my way of thinking, how I react to certain things. It all seems slowed down like my brain's suspended in molasses. My thoughts come out garbled as though something in my mind is misfiring. Kinda like a circuit-breaker, when the mind is recieving too much mental stimulus (or anxiety) it tends to cut itself off to keep from going into shock.

 

[Jgamepro]

Well, I'm an art major. Or ex-art major(before my bank account caused me to go rogue.) I'm gay and a furry. My parents are just welling with pride btw. Before all this started I played a lot of games. Mostly retro. I enjoy the classics. I feel games nowadays have nothing fresh or original to offer me. Well, except for perhaps the indie scene. But even they typically are just ripping off games that came 30 years before them so there's no point. Listen to alternative music. Especially electronica, neo-psychedelic (MGMT, Daft Punk, Animal Collective, Tame Impala, Gorillaz.) Also a bit of post-punk (Talking Heads, The Smiths, The Cure, Jesus and Mary Chain, REM, Dinosaur Jr, Meat-Puppets, The Melvins, and Mudhoney.)

I do have bipolar 1 which I've dealt with since high school. The anxiety and depersonalization is a relatively new thing. It started about 8 months ago. I had trouble sleeping one night and having forgotten a warning from my physician took trazodone and remeron together to disasterous results. It felt like I had died. I literally thought I was dead at one point. Immobilized, could scarcely breathe and suffered from constant panic attacks. I spent the night in the emergency room shaking and then spent the whole day at work the following day. Of course, after it happened I didn't think much about it. And nothing happened until a couple months later the anxiety came back full force for no apparent reason. And since then have been in and out of the hospital trying to find something that helps but nothing really does. Like I said dp is a constant thing for me. It never goes away. And all the anxiety causes my brain to get tired rather quickly. Which makes it difficult to follow a conversation. Half the time I just don't feel like I can keep up with people. I need to start working again but I just don't feel like I can do it. I just can't deal with people when I'm like this.

 

[Swansea]

How old are you and what physical sex are you if you don't mind me asking? I am sorry you are not finding any consistent help with the medications. Are you in therapy? DP/DR can be a result of a panic attack/anxiety and unfortunately even after the anxiety is over your brain still has a foggy feeling to it. If I were you I would try to mantain a consistent/stable med routine. Find something that works decently at least for the anxiety and manic depression and stay on that. it probably wont help the depersonalization right away. You also need to find a really consistent routine. Eating healthy I had a post where I linked several books that are very helpful in healthy eating http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/42522-healthy-eating-book-recommendations/#entry304161, sleeping at consistent times try your damndest to fall asleep and wake up at the same time, and exercise (at least 4 times a week of 30 min. aerobic activity). Changes will probably not happen over night as DP/DR is a slow moving process. I have had it consistently since March 2013 due to taking too much mdma unintentionally and subsequent panic attacks. I have been completely sober from caffiene ciggerettes and alcohol (these were the only things i used semi-regularly for 6 months. I am just now starting to feel more stable and out of the fog. Don't give up. Just keep searching for answers eventually they will come. Also you need to be in consistent therapy because alot of dp/dr is related to various trauma you have experienced in life.

 

[shadowshudder]

Well, I'm an art major. Or ex-art major(before my bank account caused me to go rogue.) I'm gay and a furry. My parents are just welling with pride btw. Before all this started I played a lot of games. Mostly retro. I enjoy the classics. I feel games nowadays have nothing fresh or original to offer me. Well, except for perhaps the indie scene. But even they typically are just ripping off games that came 30 years before them so there's no point. Listen to alternative music. Especially electronica, neo-psychedelic (MGMT, Daft Punk, Animal Collective, Tame Impala, Gorillaz.) Also a bit of post-punk (Talking Heads, The Smiths, The Cure, Jesus and Mary Chain, REM, Dinosaur Jr, Meat-Puppets, The Melvins, and Mudhoney.)

I do have bipolar 1 which I've dealt with since high school. The anxiety and depersonalization is a relatively new thing. It started about 8 months ago. I had trouble sleeping one night and having forgotten a warning from my physician took trazodone and remeron together to disasterous results. It felt like I had died. I literally thought I was dead at one point. Immobilized, could scarcely breathe and suffered from constant panic attacks. I spent the night in the emergency room shaking and then spent the whole day at work the following day. Of course, after it happened I didn't think much about it. And nothing happened until a couple months later the anxiety came back full force for no apparent reason. And since then have been in and out of the hospital trying to find something that helps but nothing really does. Like I said dp is a constant thing for me. It never goes away. And all the anxiety causes my brain to get tired rather quickly. Which makes it difficult to follow a conversation. Half the time I just don't feel like I can keep up with people. I need to start working again but I just don't feel like I can do it. I just can't deal with people when I'm like this.

Aw man, that's rough I know how you feel though, I'm only 15 and I've had this off and on for 2 years... It gets better at points but at other points it's disastrous. Hang in there man, It'll be alright. I'm not gonna go tell you what to do, like seek treatment, but therapy has helped me in the past.

 

[googleeyes]

Now that you have dp, it may be time to reaccess your medications. Make sure that none of them have dissociative symptoms as a side effect. Besides that I would recommend reading up on some anxiety coping techniques. "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" is amongst my favourites.