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Hi everyone,

I am new here (obviously). I am 53 years old, a mom, an artist, writer and scholar, and survivor of childhood sexual, psychological and emotional abuse.

Two months ago I had a breakdown when my father died: my C-PTSD blew up so badly I could no longer function,. I was flooded with suicidal ideation and self-harm urges. Because I have children, I did not give in to any of those urges, but I did drink to excess... and sought help. I wound up in a trauma/rehab facility for 30 days, and got home a week ago.

I have been in therapy for decades... facing many layers of truth and pain...and now I am facing the fact that the net effect of the many traumas I experienced is a dissociated ego. I have "self-states" that exist apart from my everyday consciousness. I am still me when I experience them, but they are overwhelmingly intense and in anguish.

It is awful to learn about it... and yet a relief. Because this form of DID explains my memory lapses, my discontinuous experience of myself, life and the world, relationship problems, career problems, and a chronically broken heart.

I am relieved but scared, and overwhelmed thinking about the amount of work I need to do. I have just signed on with a new therapist who had outlined a phased treatment program and I think she is really going to help me.

But meanwhile I really need to talk with others who are experiencing something similar. Support, understanding, maybe even friendship.....
 

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Welcome to the site! :)

I'm sorry you're going through all of this.

It's great that you've gotten yourself a new therapist and hopefully this treatment program will work wonders for you in the near future.

Keep us updated, we're all rooting for you!
 
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