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Hi all!

I will spare you the usual unhappy-childhood / hellish-life paragraphs. Suffice to say that I stopped believing I might be an adhd, an aspie, a schizo or whatever (got negative diagnoses for all of these, but still no positive to date), the minute I read about DP/DR and its symptoms, which is only a few days ago. I have suffered moderate to severe anxiety for as long as I can remember, had several panic attacks so bad that I really thought I was dying or losing my mind for good and I'm nothing short of a social misfit, yet I can't help feeling optimistic tonight: I may feel empty but I know I'm just anxious! The excerpt from Unravelling on Janine Baker's website even made me laugh!

Now, I know that generalised anxiety and social phobia (and other types of anxiety) are curable, and I will see a psychiatrist at a specialised anxiety clinic in a bit less than a fortnight, but I was curious about your experience of anxiety treatments and their effects on DP. Does DP usually subside with anxiety? Any anxiety drug that worsens DP? It's a pity I'm only reading about all this now because I was living minutes from what seems to be a world-class DP research centre in London and I relocated to Belgium just a few weeks ago. Anyway, my life is here now and I've got to fix myself at last!

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Hi there and welcome, if you think have DP you probarbly wan't to read the info on this site so you can relate. DP is definatly related with anxiety in most cases. AD medication may help for anxiety and possible OC thoughts wich often go together with DP. for me AD's are helping a great deal.
 
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DutchMark said:
Hi there and welcome, if you think have DP you probarbly wan't to read the info on this site so you can relate. DP is definatly related with anxiety in most cases. AD medication may help for anxiety and possible OC thoughts wich often go together with DP. for me AD's are helping a great deal.
When I read the symptoms, I had this immediate sense of "Right on, that's me!" which I never had with any other description of a mental disease before. I have all the symptoms to a varying extent, though I don't feel more depersonalised in the morning, as the majority.

It feels more like I never quite wake up and by the end of my working day, I'm exhausted of having tried to keep my feet on the ground and interact with colleagues like a normal guy. I am very sensitive to neon light and computer monitors, tend to lose balance at times, and I'm always so far away that I can have a conversation without having the sense that it's me speaking, or I can wash my hand and realise only after several seconds that it's me in the mirror. I tend to forget I am alive, as if I didn't have any feelings anymore. I see without interpreting what I see. I feel some sort of pressure in my eyes (could be anxiety), my sense of vision is a bit unreal like driving in fog or mist (with diffraction from the headlights in the droplets sometimes :), a sense of functioning in automatic mode, etc. I can't concentrate on anything and become very anxious/distressed when I try to hard but still can't.

Anyways, the psychiatrist will tell in a few days' time. It's lasted all too long... Thanks for your comments
 

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For me Xanax got my DP/DR and anxiety 10 times worst than it was.

Zoloft helped by 25%, but I was too zombie....
I prefer the natural way...eathing habits and sleep.
 

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UncleSeb,
You've desribed this mess to a "t". Along with the "off balance" feelings, being bothered by computer monitors, neon lights, etc.

I've had a lessening of the DP/DR on a combo of Celexa, Klonopin and Lamictal.

Glad you found the board.
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after the first few weeks sertraline has helped me
 

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for your post on my website :) I was kind of shocked, but also very happy (well well, those good old feelings/impulses haven't given up on me for good, apparantly)

I've been reading bits and pieces the last couple of days, and it really is encouraging. thanks for your support, and... keep it up, u2.
 
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Thank you for all the comments!

Mies, sorry if my post shocked you at first, I should learn not to write messages when I'm overanxious, especially when writing to anxious people :oops: But it sounded so much like you were giving up on life that I sort of freaked out, I guess. I'm happy it helped you reconnect a tiny weeny little bit ;)

Today, I went running in the forest. Apparently, DP hasn't taken it all: I can still run on small topsy-turvy paths, uphill/downhill, avoid obstacles and all, control my breath and keep going for more than half an hour before feeling the first signs of fatigue. DP also hasn't taken my driving skills: it felt bizarre at first but now I know I can drive safely, though fully DP'ed. On the other hand, there is no way I can get any intellectual work done (and I'm a software engineer) which freaks me out because I've just started a new job. And I really can't afford to lose it. Hope is the only way ahead, I'm afraid!

Have a nice weekend, mates!
 

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no worries, I'm here at least until the Cure gave one more concert in Belgium :) I stole his quote from Smith btw: I don't know why I am in this world, but meantime I can just wait and see what life has to offer. no suicidal tendancies, only sometimes the thought that I don't want to lose my nearest and dearest, and that stepping out seems a solution for that. luckily, my fuilings of guilt (letting down the people who really care about me) and my need for logic and order (a child shouldn't go before the parents do), are more than big enough do keep me from doing something permanent about it. 8)

what I really wanted to say is: intellectual work is hard on me too, meaning I have troubles thinking for myself. repeating habits and respecting an already existing logical process is easy enough. like driving. inventing something new, or solving a new problem, is very hard. working in HR is easy most of the time, where it comes to interviewing people, firing them, making reports, etc. it becomes difficult when I have to think "outside of the box". experimenting, trial and error, etc are things I can easily do when I'm the only one involved (I lack the empathy for myself to be cautious). but don't ask me to interfere in other peoples lives.
maybe this can reassure you?
 
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