Just Cannot Join In...

hey there...been a while since i posted last...

i have been really trying to get my life sorted...just really trying to say "f**k you" to dp and dr...

but it is just not working...

i cannot posibly focus anymore outward...

life just feels like a constant distraction...

recently i have had quite a lot of stress and of course this has really made the dp and dr go into overdrive...

i just feel so sick with fear...i feel like choking all the time because of the intensity of feeling so dp'ed and dr'ed...

i just feel like i cannot join in with anything anymore...not even my own thoughts and feelings...everyone just feels so distant at the moment...

everything really does just feel like a complete dream state...

i am so desperately trying with my life...learning new skills at work...trying to do more art work...trying to socialise...

i just do not know where to go from here...

i still see a therapist and all that and that goes quite well...

dunno...just felt like i needed to vent as i have not in a while...

i just want to join in again! stop faking everything and just be me!

any comments would be great..many thanks for reading...