[squish_is_me]

I was talking to my sis about all this and she is pretty sure, based on the descirption fron Janine's book, that she has DP on a emi-regular basis. She was telling me that even just a few days ago she was sitting trying to wind down from major strees out day and she began to feel... just as described... outside of herself, like she was watching herself or something. She told me she gets this on a semi-regular basis. She told me that she just tells herself to stop it! HSe has stuff to do and doesnt have the time for this! Snap out of it! And then she is back! No more DP momment... at least for the time. So Janine has been talking some about how this is a mental thing... so I am wondering if this is something that could work for others? Is there anyone here that has been able to do this? I in part have done the same thing! Over the past year I have been fighting thhe DR momments off as I said in another pst by saying I have to work! I have to do payroll ... others have to be paid! I have to be paid! I need to care for my kids! They want me to play with them! I want to play with them! You have to suck it up and go on!
Does anyone think this could be an effective way to deal with this? I mean I know I am a ton better as a result of it as compared to where I was a year ago! And I dont just mean I can function with it I mean I have learned to function and get past it in a big part!
Any thoughts?

 

[Scattered]

I think that this can be thought through. However, I have my doubts. I had such a withdrawn childhood that I find myself trying to understand myself and often feeling like I don't want to be myself. My main question is how does a person who hates his past and can't reconcile that with his present ever completely come back to reality and feel real?

I'm in the midst of having a VERY hard time accepting who I am and the decisions I've made as a person. So I might be complicit in these feelings however they have been getting terrible and I just want them to stop. I wish I could say "just stop" but in some ways I believe I have forgotten what it is to be "real".