Ive Lost My Mind!

Hey everyone.. I posted here a while ago about memory issues.. and I had a really good response.. helped me a lot.. but now they have gotten to a very very severe point.. and im starting to completely freak out once again. Here's just a few examples

I have no idea what i did this morning.. unless i really rack my brains.. and remember i went to class... but it seems like weeks ago that I went to class. Then After class is a bit of a blur.. I know I went to lunch.. I dont really know what made me decide to go there etc...

I had my friend over to my dorm room.. we talked for an hour.. I dont really recall much of the conversation.

I NEVER remember when things happened.. yesterday feels like a DECADE ago.. I never know who ive talked too and stuff.

If someone brings up a specific event like "remember doing this?" .. of course i remember.. but i dont remember when it happened.. specific details.. unless someone reminds me of those too.

Am I going absolutely insane? im freaking out.. i dont want to forget everything.. HELP ME

Janine, although i admit in the past you have been much more comforting (the whole "there is no way to stop it" thing is scary).. somehow u alyaws make me feel a little better. I was reading through your Dp story .. and its identical to mine.

No major issues throughout life.. small little irrational anxieties.. never quite fitting in.. then 2nd year high school.. BOOM.. anxiety attack happens.. and i never go back.. severe hypochondria and panick attacks develop.. I think im dying. I have every health fear in the book.. CONVINCING myself that my heart is about to stop.. I also spent a lot of time checking my pulse and other obsessive things like this.

Then one day.. i fell asleep.. and woke back up.. and there was DP.. at first it sort of came and went.. never completely back to normal.. but it was mostly just anxiety.. I felt kinda dreamy.. but it just kept getting worse and worse...

To the point where I no longer believed anything existed anymore.. Ive gone up and down since then.. weird fears of everything just dissapearing.. that nothing is real... that ive gone insane.. that im going to hurt myself or others... that ive been misdiagnosed and i have some awful brain disease... that im in a coma somewhere else and this is just a dream....

Now memory problems plague me.. and like everything else before them.. it has to be "THE WORST THING YET" .. it always seems the worst when its the one happening...

im petrified.. I struggle so hard just to remember what happened this morning.. I have no idea what happened when.. putting things in chronological order is impossible. If someone asked me if I remembered a specific event, i would.. but if someone asked me "what did you do today" .. i COMPLETELY freeze.. and i have NO idea.. i have such jumbled thoughts.. things just fly at me from the past few days and i have no idea if they happened today or years ago.. Then i frantically try and remember anything from anywhere.. and nothing comes at me.. Nothing...

I start to feel like my memory is completely gone.. and that my whole 18 years of life is just.. ruined.. pointless.. ive forgotten it all.

I know i have to stop myself.. but you know what its like.. its so HARD just to let go.. when all i want to do is prove to myself that i wont lose everything.. i feel like im grasping on to the few memories i have left.. and if i let go of the worry.. i let go of those last memories...

its crazy i know... thanks for the replies

Janine, although i admit in the past you have been much more comforting (the whole "there is no way to stop it" thing is scary).. somehow u alyaws make me feel a little better. I was reading through your Dp story .. and its identical to mine.

No major issues throughout life.. small little irrational anxieties.. never quite fitting in.. then 2nd year high school.. BOOM.. anxiety attack happens.. and i never go back.. severe hypochondria and panick attacks develop.. I think im dying. I have every health fear in the book.. CONVINCING myself that my heart is about to stop.. I also spent a lot of time checking my pulse and other obsessive things like this.

Then one day.. i fell asleep.. and woke back up.. and there was DP.. at first it sort of came and went.. never completely back to normal.. but it was mostly just anxiety.. I felt kinda dreamy.. but it just kept getting worse and worse...

To the point where I no longer believed anything existed anymore.. Ive gone up and down since then.. weird fears of everything just dissapearing.. that nothing is real... that ive gone insane.. that im going to hurt myself or others... that ive been misdiagnosed and i have some awful brain disease... that im in a coma somewhere else and this is just a dream....

Now memory problems plague me.. and like everything else before them.. it has to be "THE WORST THING YET" .. it always seems the worst when its the one happening...

im petrified.. I struggle so hard just to remember what happened this morning.. I have no idea what happened when.. putting things in chronological order is impossible. If someone asked me if I remembered a specific event, i would.. but if someone asked me "what did you do today" .. i COMPLETELY freeze.. and i have NO idea.. i have such jumbled thoughts.. things just fly at me from the past few days and i have no idea if they happened today or years ago.. Then i frantically try and remember anything from anywhere.. and nothing comes at me.. Nothing...

I start to feel like my memory is completely gone.. and that my whole 18 years of life is just.. ruined.. pointless.. ive forgotten it all.

I know i have to stop myself.. but you know what its like.. its so HARD just to let go.. when all i want to do is prove to myself that i wont lose everything.. i feel like im grasping on to the few memories i have left.. and if i let go of the worry.. i let go of those last memories...

its crazy i know... thanks for the replies