[SufferingInSilence]

I turned 21 today and I can't seem to really comprehend what it means. It feels like part of my brain has been shut off, changing how i think and process internal and external information. I can't understand the benefits of having a good routine, waking up at a reasonable time everyday or what it means and why I would want and should try to get better. The loss of identity is so great I don't seem to have a care for my own self like what is there to care about? Why would I want to be healthy, eat right, work out, etc. My desire to socialize and be around friends and families seems to be at an all time low, maybe nonexistent I don't know. I can't understand that what I'm going through is just dp/dr/hppd. I used to be sarcastic, thinking to myself things like I might as well be schizophrenic, DID, autistic or whatever because I didn't actually think I had them and sarcastically labeling myself helped me cope mentally but now it's not helping anymore and I'm actually having a hard time convincing myself otherwise.

I'm 21 today and I'm sitting out here feeling lobotimized, not having any sense of self or a concept of what's normal, and not being aware of if or when I'm being strange. I'm writing this post, though not going into full details, to share with you guys the jest of what I'm going through at the moment. I hope it's just dp/dr/hppd and nothing worse and that things will turn around for the better eventually. Peace!

 

[Surfingisfun001]

Happy Birthday! I hope you have a good day and feel better soon.

 

[HopingCat36]

I turned 21 today and I can't seem to really comprehend what it means. It feels like part of my brain has been shut off, changing how i think and process internal and external information. I can't understand the benefits of having a good routine, waking up at a reasonable time everyday or what it means and why I would want and should try to get better. The loss of identity is so great I don't seem to have a care for my own self like what is there to care about? Why would I want to be healthy, eat right, work out, etc. My desire to socialize and be around friends and families seems to be at an all time low, maybe nonexistent I don't know. I can't understand that what I'm going through is just dp/dr/hppd. I used to be sarcastic, thinking to myself things like I might as well be schizophrenic, DID, autistic or whatever because I didn't actually think I had them and sarcastically labeling myself helped me cope mentally but now it's not helping anymore and I'm actually having a hard time convincing myself otherwise.

I'm 21 today and I'm sitting out here feeling lobotimized, not having any sense of self or a concept of what's normal, and not being aware of if or when I'm being strange. I'm writing this post, though not going into full details, to share with you guys the jest of what I'm going through at the moment. I hope it's just dp/dr/hppd and nothing worse and that things will turn around for the better eventually. Peace!

I feel the same way. It's like I lost myself, I have no personality, no identity anymore. I'm just here. Sometimes I question why I'm doing what I'm doing. What's the point of doing this and that. It's so horrific but we have to keep trying. We can't give up. I have been trying really hard to do the same routine I had before. It's hard but everyday I do it. I know recovery is possible because I once did it. And like you I remember that when I had this before my birthday came and I was devastated. I couldn't understand what, when, where, how, why and all I did was cry but guess what eventually recovered and I will recovery again and so will you. Happy birthday.

 

[allison84]

Happy birthday 21st is a big one

I hope you feel better real soon try to be positive and keep yourself busy .
Hard i know but we have to push though ..