[shadowness]

being a person...

being a human...

being able to make decisions that may seem small on the surface but it is still your whole life is effected by whatever you decide...and it effects others lives too...

being alive just feels so incredibley daunting...

like i have been told to do something impossible...

it is hard to explain but does anyone know what i am talking about?

i just feel like i cannot cope with anything...i cannot cope with being me, i cannot cope with the world around me...

i just feel like i am going to explode...i am trying to comprehend everything but am just giving myself a headache!

both dp and dr have been so severe recently...by body is feeling even more numb and everything looks so flat...

i am sorry to vent and thank you to those of you who have read...

i just really do not know what to do anymore...

 

[Guest]

Hey, Sorry you're feelin' this way..... I know that dauntin' feelin'...kinda feels like ya watching every move u make, everything u do/say cos it affects your whole life... It's like something follows you all day and all night....I kinda understand when you say you're trying to comprehend everything but doesn't it feel like even though it should 'click' it just doesn't????? Then you're stuck in a vicious circle....and it goes round and round...
When you say it feels like you've been told to do something impossible...it feels like you're doomed or somethin' huh??? The overawareness of our mortality and existence is freaky to think about.....

You said you want to do psychology and stuff at college???? You could buy a book or somethin on it just to try n have something to focus on meanwhile cos it could help build up on somethin' if thats what you wanna do....

Hope you feel ok......sorry i don't really know what else to say xxxxx

 

[Scattered]

I understand completely. There have been many moments when I realized how difficult it is just to exist and breathe as a human being in the world. Those moments when you analyze every little thing to the point that it starts to overload you're brain. The best thing to do is to say F*ck it. Seriously. Just say screw it who cares about the DP? Who cares if everything seems or even IS fake? You have to roll with it and accept it. Once you accept it and lose you're fear over it, it no longer controls you. The path of least resistance is the best, that sounds ridiculous but when you start to accept it, it starts to diminish. The trick is to truly make yourself believe that, which can be extremely difficult. But once you do I guarantee that even if you're not cured, you will begin to feel better. Its a constant battle but if you continue on and refuse to play the game that your obsessions are trying to dictate I believe that you will improve.

 

[enigma]

Being on my own.

My fate in my own hands.

Everything that happens to me depending on decisions I make.

This is too overwhelming for me to even contemplate.

So yeah, I can relate to all that, Shadow.

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