[Kelson12]

I just realized how quickly my DP/Depression/Anxiety can come on. One minute I am enjoying myself playing a whole day full of basketball on Saturday, then going out with my friends on Saturday evening. Next thing I know it is Wednesday and I've never felt so depressed/DPed in my life. And whatta ya know, right in time for Christmas. How perfect!

Anways, I went about 2 and a half weeks of feeling good this time around. I got sick Sunday evening/night with a stomach virus. Didn't go to work on Monday and basically just slept all day. Well, when I woke up to go to work on Tuesday morning, my DP kinna hit me again and next thing I know I am as depressed as can be. I now feel like the enjoyment I felt on Saturday was like 10 years ago, when in reality it was like 4 days ago. Purely amazing. I think this is why DP/Depression/Anxiety is so scary. It is so hard to predict. Most of the time, I never know when it is gonna come back on. I mean, many could say, well ya drank last weekend, that's why it came back. Well I drank the weekend before that as well. And felt fine last week. It's just so God-awful unpredictable.

Right now, I am sittin at work feeling nearly paralyzed. I don't wanna talk, don't wanna smile, don't wanna laugh, don't wanna get up, don't wanna do anything, but sleep. I am so mentally frozen right now. Thankfully it is snowing out and I am gonna leave work early, go home, and go to bed.

Just wanted to vent. Take care.

Kelson

 

[Guest]

hmmm i see what u mean, try to analyze what happens between the point of being healed and going into DP/DEPRESSION and the next time u get over it change things, expirement with your state of mind and dont drink its not the answer to ur problem. I know it seems that everyone else is drinking and having a great time, and u just wanna be like them with a normal mind, with a normal life. The depression is tellin u to lay off the boos really but ur taking it as u should drink more to make u happier. See where u are rite now ? Look at ur surroundings, u arent happy. Lots of people drink, and there are plenty who dont. Listen to your GOOD SIDE not ur bad side even tho ur bad side is more tempting. Make a plan starting now at this very moment and change yourself, millions of people do it.

 

[Dreamer]

Dear Kelson,
There is pretty much a general consensus here that getting physically ill makes DP/DR worse. This has happened to me MANY times over the years.

One of my worst dips into DP Hell occurred during a hideous bronchitis I contracted.

There is a connection between physical illness and increase in DP/DR symptoms and excacerbation of other mental illnesses. DP/DR for certain!

Take Care,
Best,
D

 

[Inflammed]

That is fast ?

Dude...I can feel 100% healthy, and in a matter of seconds I can be blown in full DP !.

 

[Guest]

Well, I just got back from Montreal. Sorry inflammed, my whole situation got a bit fucked (cold, no cell charger, idiot friends) so I screwed that opportunity.

Anyhoo, I spent about 4 days feeling virtually normal in the -15 F climate. Right before I left, I spent an hour with my parents (first time i'd seen them in a few months). They, still totally oblivious of what dpdr really does to me, accuse me of being high. I was in a decent mood until then and for some reason this sent me into a total breakdown. My friends showed up and it was gone for about 4 days.

Now i've been home for a few hours and my dpdr is back to its average level and i'm pissed. By the way, I plan on moving to Montreal because its the most beautiful city i've ever seen after London.

 

[Inflammed]

No problems Ziggo...
We had some great -30 these last few days...
And I found out that my DP is better in the winter than in the summer.