Isolated & Alone, So Here I am

I'm 16, and I was born with depersonalization. I had always wondered why I never felt like I was on the same plane as everyone else.
And I've never been able to explain it that well, until recently.

I was just an amazingly self-aware kid and I still am.
And sadly because of this, I lack the ability to comprehend reality.
My minds so complex,and I was such a withdrawn child that my parents thought I had autism.

Diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety I've had my fair share of panic attacks.
And though I suffer, I don't think I can live without it too.
I don't know what I'd do without it, just thinking of the world being clear and everything being in focus is foreign and just too unreal to me.

On top of that, I have Visual Snow (when you constantly see static in your vision).
So it feels like I'm in a Tv show all the time.
I was born with visual snow too.

I have no one to talk about this to.
My therapist understands (maybe I think), but naturally I can't actually talk about any feelings since I'm so disconnected from them. So therapy feels useless.
And so here I am.

And that's pretty much the story of my life.