Hey Maddyn
That's definitely normal for me. I'm in a constant dp/dr detached state sort of drifting along on autopilot, some days are better, most are not so good but I get through. But I have some really bad days where I just feel so lost in myself and then I start panicking that I'll forget this is real and I'm in a constant loop of intrusive thoughts. Yeah some days are much worse, maybe even a few days. My boyfriend (whose the only person I properly talk to about my dp/dr) understands when I say 'It's just a bad day'. It's so hard to keep acting like you feel the same way as everyone else, that you're alive too, not just living. I think it helps to tell someone, I find it helps to carry something textural with me too. It doesn't exactly lessen the dp/dr but it's comforting to hold something real. Dp/dr has really shot my short term memory to bits, I always have reminders written on my hand because I know that otherwise they'll slip through the net.
It's okay to have bad days or weeks, it's part of the process. Sometimes it's going to be worse for a while, but that doesn't mean you aren't getting better. How stressful right now is for you is probably worsening your symptoms too at the moment. But none of that means you won't get better. Changing your attitude definitely helps I think; it's easy to get stuck in a spiral of just thinking about your dp/dr and how unreal everything feels, but if you decide not to entertain those thoughts, to push yourself and go out and do something with a better mindset it definitely helps. Doesn't mean you don't still have the symptoms, doesn't mean you don't still have really bad days when even getting up doesn't seem worth the amount of effort it will take. But it does mean you can get better
Thursday x
That's definitely normal for me. I'm in a constant dp/dr detached state sort of drifting along on autopilot, some days are better, most are not so good but I get through. But I have some really bad days where I just feel so lost in myself and then I start panicking that I'll forget this is real and I'm in a constant loop of intrusive thoughts. Yeah some days are much worse, maybe even a few days. My boyfriend (whose the only person I properly talk to about my dp/dr) understands when I say 'It's just a bad day'. It's so hard to keep acting like you feel the same way as everyone else, that you're alive too, not just living. I think it helps to tell someone, I find it helps to carry something textural with me too. It doesn't exactly lessen the dp/dr but it's comforting to hold something real. Dp/dr has really shot my short term memory to bits, I always have reminders written on my hand because I know that otherwise they'll slip through the net.
It's okay to have bad days or weeks, it's part of the process. Sometimes it's going to be worse for a while, but that doesn't mean you aren't getting better. How stressful right now is for you is probably worsening your symptoms too at the moment. But none of that means you won't get better. Changing your attitude definitely helps I think; it's easy to get stuck in a spiral of just thinking about your dp/dr and how unreal everything feels, but if you decide not to entertain those thoughts, to push yourself and go out and do something with a better mindset it definitely helps. Doesn't mean you don't still have the symptoms, doesn't mean you don't still have really bad days when even getting up doesn't seem worth the amount of effort it will take. But it does mean you can get better
Thursday x
