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·Hi there, I'm an anxious guy with a little dp also, but my worst problem is that I have a strong fear of insanity...yes I know that this is very common but I freak out that maybe mine is different: I always go making searches on the net for symptoms of scary mental illnesses in order to reassure myself that I don't have these illnesses, but sadly when I read about them I sorta try to imagine them and then is like I have these symptoms.
Even if I can't imagine hallucinations (I guess they're impossible to create if one doesn't really have them) I'm more than able to make myself feel paranoid or delusional by thinking about things I've read on the net (aliens, CIA, thought reading and so on).
Another example is that when I've read about schizophrenic people "laughing instead of crying", I've started to think the classic "what if I laugh instead of crying?" and then, after a pair of months, everytime I read, hear or see sad news or situations, I've an urge to laugh and I panic, it has become automatic...I hope this is not psychosis and that I've only oversuggestioned myself.
Also I challenge myself to create the most horrible, absurd thoughts and next try to see if I believe in them...fear of delusions, of course, but then I freak out that maybe I really believe them and I must say to myself that it isn't true.
Ok, sorry for the long post but I really need some advice or reassurance...I know that I've a good insight and psychotic people don't have it, but I've the fear that one day I'll snap out of myself and become insane, sigh
Thank you for your help!
Tau
Even if I can't imagine hallucinations (I guess they're impossible to create if one doesn't really have them) I'm more than able to make myself feel paranoid or delusional by thinking about things I've read on the net (aliens, CIA, thought reading and so on).
Another example is that when I've read about schizophrenic people "laughing instead of crying", I've started to think the classic "what if I laugh instead of crying?" and then, after a pair of months, everytime I read, hear or see sad news or situations, I've an urge to laugh and I panic, it has become automatic...I hope this is not psychosis and that I've only oversuggestioned myself.
Also I challenge myself to create the most horrible, absurd thoughts and next try to see if I believe in them...fear of delusions, of course, but then I freak out that maybe I really believe them and I must say to myself that it isn't true.
Ok, sorry for the long post but I really need some advice or reassurance...I know that I've a good insight and psychotic people don't have it, but I've the fear that one day I'll snap out of myself and become insane, sigh
Thank you for your help!
Tau