This time, the most prominent symptom is what I can best describe as emotional numbness, but the weird thing is, I feel like the emotions are still kind of there, but also not really.
I can also still feel the most basic emotions, like some days I'm in a generally happy mood, but nothing that happens will change that mood. Same when I'm sad. I can also still genuinly laugh and cry, without forcing it, but mostly it feels hollow, and sometimes like it's just a reflex. Another very weird thing is that my thoughts don't trigger emotions anymore, or atleast not complex emotions like pride, nostalgia etc. Still get goosebumps and all that, but this also feels more like just a physical reaction. There's also this sensation of feeling empty.
Sometimes the joy / excitement in things is there, but the emotion feels distant and diffuse. The rest doesn't seem to match up when it comes to anhedonia though, because I don't feel neutral all the time. It's just like all complex emotions are missing.
I think i may be going through something similar. Mines kinda fueled by an OCD type of thinking pattern though. I definitely relate to the first two i quoted from you. I feel my emotions are there, but they just happen naturally as a reflex and i react to them like they arnt there or dont mean anything and i cant feel the 'substance' of it. I question constantly what certain emotions are or why i like some and not others to the point where i dont even "like" feeling happy anymore? its weird. When you said that bit about goosebumps, and how it feels like just a physical reaction, i get that too and my emotions also feel like just automatic reactions.
For the last one i quoted: Same here! The feeling of joy is there but its like it feels half full or missing substance and like its not attached to me, but i also constantly question why i feel things and why i want to be happy so i think thats a huge part of mine. Im also confused if i have anhedonia or not. I think that since we can still feel the good feelings, we probably dont have anhedonia and its just that the feeling is numbed down a bit but idk.