[retrobot]

I feel high 24/7, panic attacks, the house I live in seems like something from the ancient times I feel like I am losing it.......
I can't feel, think, concentrate....... I am scared of myself, my parents everyone and I feel like a brick.. I can't cry, I am just a bundle of anxiety.

I DONT want to kill myself but I DONT want to live like this.....
I have seen doctors, I was hospitalised last week.... what am I going to do... I have not endured a pain like this I want to scream so loud.

 

[PainIsTheName]

I feel high 24/7, panic attacks, the house I live in seems like something from the ancient times I feel like I am losing it.......
I can't feel, think, concentrate....... I am scared of myself, my parents everyone and I feel like a brick.. I can't cry, I am just a bundle of anxiety.

I DONT want to kill myself but I DONT want to live like this.....
I have seen doctors, I was hospitalised last week.... what am I going to do... I have not endured a pain like this I want to scream so loud.

cmon man snap out of it, focus, its all gonna pass but dont watch it pass do something about it, it takes time to figure it out, but everyone figures it out eventually..their mind..no matter how complex it is. trust me, i know.

you will find coping mechanisms
write them down

u need human connection
this is normal for people at your stage

inhale and exhale from your chest, drink tea, taking vitamins as needed, cope in different ways, believe in something, even astrology, numerology, anything

read if you like to, keep pushing even if you dont like to do it, fake it till it till you make it

you got this

i cant wait to see you grow

 

[retrobot]

ughhhhhh these thoughts and sensations, it's so hard I am gonna push till my last breath, word.

 

[Saschasascha]

Have you tried meds?

 

[Findingtheway]

Had this for a long time....within the last year my stress response changed...could be from my lyme or liver issues but my body stepped in and slowed down everything to conserve energy....wanted to share this because...in our fits of anxiety we do not think straight or logically and it makes us believe blindly that the intensity will never end...it will....always seek help when needed....it will be a struggle sometimes to get the right help but be persistent...build a support group so that someone can advocate for you if you are feeling unwell...there is no shame in this.

 

[retrobot]

Had this for a long time....within the last year my stress response changed...could be from my lyme or liver issues but my body stepped in and slowed down everything to conserve energy....wanted to share this because...in our fits of anxiety we do not think straight or logically and it makes us believe blindly that the intensity will never end...it will....always seek help when needed....it will be a struggle sometimes to get the right help but be persistent...build a support group so that someone can advocate for you if you are feeling unwell...there is no shame in this.

means a lot thank you

 

[Disturbed]

I feel high 24/7, panic attacks, the house I live in seems like something from the ancient times I feel like I am losing it.......
I can't feel, think, concentrate....... I am scared of myself, my parents everyone and I feel like a brick.. I can't cry, I am just a bundle of anxiety.

I DONT want to kill myself but I DONT want to live like this.....
I have seen doctors, I was hospitalised last week.... what am I going to do... I have not endured a pain like this I want to scream so loud.

I've been here for 7 long and extremely hard years. Numb to the world. Don't date ever. Don't see friends outside of work. Completely antisocial except every 4-6 months when I go find a friend to do drugs with because I'm so freaking desperate to feel something. Then afterwards I feel worse and even more detached. If I had to picture the perfect hell then this would be it. For some reason something tells me that I can't end it. No, this will be a continuous never ending nightmare. People say they feel God's presence well I don't. Nothing. Not even a little. I'm sitting in darkness. By myself. Going through these futile motions.