[anthony_1990]

Hi guys, I just discovered this forum and I hope you can help me find out if what I'm experiencing is derealization or not.

Two weeks ago, someone made me eat a Weed Cookie without telling me it contained weed. The effect kicked in while I was alone in my appartment. I've never done any drugs in my life and I almost never drink alcohol.

When it kicked in, I thought I was having a seizure or something, not understanding what was happening to me... I was so scared I knocked on my neighbor's door. He took me in and asked me questions and ultimately told me "relax, somebody gave you a weed cookie you'll be fine".

But I'm a very anxious person and I was terrorized for hours. I felt my brain slowing down during the bad trip, my memories becoming super hard to access, etc. It freaked me out. Went to sleep and woke up feeling super Groggy and Dizzy and Hangver-like.

Since then, the feelings didn't come down, I kind of feel like if I am a bit Tipsy 24/7 and I experience the following symptoms:

• Groggyness (I feel like I'm in a cloud 24/7. A bit like the first minute after you just woke up from a nap. Or when you have the flu and you're a bit spaced out.)

• Dizziness

• Hard time focusing. My ideas don't "click" like they used to. I feel like I have to put extra effort to think about things or to do any simple task

• Not mentally sharp like I usually am. Like I'm conscious but a bit drunk.

• My vision is weird. Feels like my eyes are playing tricks. Like depth perception is weird and when I look at cars in the street it feels like my eyes focus on the car only and all the rest becomes blurry. When I g in a shop, the walls of products look like they are moving in depth, super annoying.

• The lights hurt my eyes a little bit.

• My short term memory is very bad. iIusually have a great memory but since it started, I forget a lot of things I just did or read 5 mins ago

• I feel slow and dumb (like I'm using only 80% of my brain)

• Sleepy and exhausted

• I don't get excited by the things that should normally excite me (projects, sport, ideas...). I feel zero motivation to do anything.

• I'm SUPER anxious

I don't feel like the world is fake, but I feel like I'm a little bit less conscisous than normal. The best way to put it for me is to say that: I basically just feel like if I was a bit tipsy 24/7.

Does it sound like Derealization to you? Can I recover from this? How?

Thanks so much for your help!

 

[James_80]

Hey man, sorry to hear about what happened. It sounds like classic derealization/depersonalisation symptoms to me. It is possible to recover, especially if you were mostly ok before the weed incident. To do this you should do your best to try and bring your anxiety levels down. Dp/dr is the brain's way of coping with extreme anxiety or trauma. You mentioned that you are super anxious so that is probably what is keeping you in this state. It might take a while to get out of it but try not to worry too much, just look to bring those anxiety levels down and things will slowly improve. You can do this by just living as healthy as possible. Get enough sleep, plenty of exercise, cut back on caffeine and alcohol, socialise with people who know you well, spend time with family. Whatever it is that you love, as long as it's healthy, indulge yourself in that.

 

[anthony_1990]

@james_80 Thanks so much for your reply man.

This feling is so weird! I just feel like I'm not 100% here, like if my brain was a bit under anesthesia.

Last night, I don't know why but everything started looking weird, like my apartment and my roommate felt less familiar than normally. I don't know how to explain it.

And I woke up in the middle of the night with the first panick attack I ever had. I felt like I was going crazy, so scared of losing touch with reality and becoming psychotic.

Does that make any sense? Is it part of this disorder?

Thanks again.

 

[deokillua]

Thc is one of the psychoactive substances in weed and I've read that a great dose of it can make the person seem to be in a permanent high. I got my dpdr from using shrooms hoping they would get rid of my depression and anxiety. They did not but they gave me dpdr, or maybe because I abused them.
I am still researching what to do in case like ours. I don't know about your lifestyle but you can incorporate exercise as part of your daily routine. Anxiety is living so much in the mind so we gotta get physical.