Good lord I thought I had this kinda' sh*t behind me.
Anyway I woke up in the middle of last night some time. Well I say woke, but really I was in the most heavily sedated daze. I could swear there was a man saying something to me, although I couldn't quite pin down where his voice was coming from. Then it became apparent he was speaking to a little girl. Then I think I might have heard another man's voice. I really couldn't say how long this lasted, between 5 and 10 seconds maybe, although I really don't know. Then in my semi conscious still dreaming state I thought maybe the voices were coming from some earphones. I checked but had no earphones in, of course. Then I think I must have fallen back to sleep.
So vague was the experience that it might in fact have been a dream. As mentioned I think I was still dreaming yet still conscious of the real world. I really couldn't say how long it lasted, between 10 and 30 seconds, but so vague was the experience that I really can't tell. What is disturbing is I'm sure these voices can't have been coming from outside. Well there is the slightest possibility that the next door neighbour was watching tv very loudly in the middle of the night. So it seems these voices were very much 'in my head'. Yet the experience was so vague, that I'm not even sure I was awake at all.
I've spent all day obsessing over it. It's terrifying to think that even whilst still half dreaming, I could have had an auditory hallucination. I've been half dreaming (I don't know the clinical term for it) before, and had some weird dellusions, I'm sure we all have. Perhaps what is truly disturbing is how much anxiety it has caused me. This brief semi conscious hallucination has left me in a state of mild despair for the whole day. The whole experience only serves to show how anxious I really am, which just makes me more anxious.
Is it common to have such experiences (hell I'm not even sure if I did hallucinate it) when in a semi conscious state?
Oh why am I even posting this. Good God I'm screwed up.
Anyway I woke up in the middle of last night some time. Well I say woke, but really I was in the most heavily sedated daze. I could swear there was a man saying something to me, although I couldn't quite pin down where his voice was coming from. Then it became apparent he was speaking to a little girl. Then I think I might have heard another man's voice. I really couldn't say how long this lasted, between 5 and 10 seconds maybe, although I really don't know. Then in my semi conscious still dreaming state I thought maybe the voices were coming from some earphones. I checked but had no earphones in, of course. Then I think I must have fallen back to sleep.
So vague was the experience that it might in fact have been a dream. As mentioned I think I was still dreaming yet still conscious of the real world. I really couldn't say how long it lasted, between 10 and 30 seconds, but so vague was the experience that I really can't tell. What is disturbing is I'm sure these voices can't have been coming from outside. Well there is the slightest possibility that the next door neighbour was watching tv very loudly in the middle of the night. So it seems these voices were very much 'in my head'. Yet the experience was so vague, that I'm not even sure I was awake at all.
I've spent all day obsessing over it. It's terrifying to think that even whilst still half dreaming, I could have had an auditory hallucination. I've been half dreaming (I don't know the clinical term for it) before, and had some weird dellusions, I'm sure we all have. Perhaps what is truly disturbing is how much anxiety it has caused me. This brief semi conscious hallucination has left me in a state of mild despair for the whole day. The whole experience only serves to show how anxious I really am, which just makes me more anxious.
Is it common to have such experiences (hell I'm not even sure if I did hallucinate it) when in a semi conscious state?
Oh why am I even posting this. Good God I'm screwed up.
