or Neurology? What's the argument here.? I didn't know much about anything at age 17, I didn't know I suffered brain damage after smoking cannabis and having seizures. But, I would figure it out over the next 40 years.
I studied electronics and learned how cathode ray tubes, using either a raster or vector mapping, could paint a picture on a TV
Video modulates a carrier frequency, vestibular side band transmission occurs and the receiving antenna
rips the video off of the carrier and separates the red blue green signals and routes them to separate cathodes from whence they are projected through a triad mask onto a phosphorous screen. Viola! A moving picture appears!
Of course, this got me wondering about the similar biological system that was responsible for creating a moving image on my brain. A process that had been affected by the seizures I had, in a way I would come to describe as DR.
The eye is a camera with a lens. The retina converts the signals from the rods and cones and sends them into the brain for processing. Unlike the image on a TV, the image in your brain will not be complete until it has been "colored"
with emotional context, after memory has been accessed to see how relevant is this thing we are viewing. Neurology would work the channel from the retina into the brain. Short of seeing a lesion or tumor, what would you expect from neurology?
Not much, I would think. So, there has to be some software in chemical and electrical form, that accomplishes the processing of your eye's image. These processes occur in the temporal lobe of the brain. Scientists state that the temporal lobe
"is exquisitely prone to insult". In other words, you can screw up its operations rather easily. Ingest toxins, screw around with psychotics, or allow yourself to suffer extreme abuse, and you can insult your temporal lobe.
Insulting the temporal lobe can cause significant dysfunction. I lost my emotions. Without emotional coloring, my family seemed alien. My dog seemed alien. I had a picture, but it was bland and empty. It was also jumpy like a slide show for
a good while following those seizures. They had no idea how to fix a problem in neurological processing of your video information 40 years ago, and I bet they have little understanding of this process today. I got about 80% of my emotions back,
and my DR either went away entirely, or got significantly better until I no longer noticed it, or most likely a combination of the two. Lucky for me, I kept plodding along and allowed time to do what it could to heal me. If I had allowed myself to
lay on the couch, I would have been there for 40 years. The brain has plasticity. You're young and otherwise healthy. Stay on the horse if you can and hope for the best. What else can one do?