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I was born into an upper middle class family but left alone in my crib in my room unless my father was home (he was an elementary school teacher by day and taught night school so mostly weekends. My mother fed me bottles on a rolled up blanket. I was clean and fed. But alone. My mother said she left the vacuum running then left the house
But she said I never cried.
I had my first human friend at age 9. My parents were told that my IQ is 176 but possibly autistic.
They got angry.
I made up my own world because I was lonely and still prefer it so that explains why my first diagnosis was atypical psychosis.
Then they said mpd because I have fugue states and no conclusive identity so my identity was fluid. I was who could survive
That was in the 80s and went sideways with me being shifted from "expert" to "expert"
I have no friends.
I wonder if DPDR that begins at birth can be healed.
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dpdr since birth? okay.
I was not born with it. Perhaps you didn't really read my words, having already judged.
The circumstances that resulted in DPDR began the day I was born. By the time I was school I was already remote and silent and unattached.
Watch a documentary on feral children or Romanian orphanages where infants have no physical contact or interaction other than caretaking.
Then perhaps your reply will be less specious
176 IQ is extremely rare and dissociative identity disorder arguably doesn't exist.

Far as neglect, I'm sure that has all kinds of neurological impacts, mostly deletirious.
I have had countless IQ tests beginning at age 7. I said I was DIAGNOSED with mpd, not that I agree that it exists. However the shrinks at 5 hospitals confirmed it nonetheless, including my IQ.
As far as I know, this isn't a contest for who is the most effed up. I really don't understand your disdain. There are medical records DOCUMENTING all of my (well known at the time) case.
I met loads of walking wounded in my 2 decades of intermittent hospitalizations who wanted to be the sickest.
Sadly that's how they often ended up so stop competing with me for who is more dpdr or whatever.
In the end, though, it amuses me. Frankly I don't care what you think. I don't care what ANYBODY thinks of me because
Oh yeah
I have dpdr and do not form attachments.
Got some crazy hospital stories if you get curious.
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I'm interested in people on this forum who are seeking help, and gathering useful information for myself if possible. That's about it. We're intimately familiar with the ills of psychiatry. I hear the 80s were worse in that respect. It's unfortunate so many of the benefits of psychiatry are intertwined with let's say reckless treatment strategies.
I know how i survived but
I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy
On the other hand, i can give perspective and actual experiential information
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