is is just an illusion?

I feel like I have a major illness but I can never quite pin it down. The more I try to figure out what my mental problem is the harder it gets to figure out. I used to drive myself nuts trying to figure out what is wrong with myself. A few times I even resorted to banging my head into a wall to try and snap myself back into this world, it never worked.

Is it just an illusion? ...Thinking that I may be able to control all this? All the problems I have caused to myself and to people around me? That in fact it is a matter of choice? That I am just playing foolish games that I don't want to quit?

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I think Brainsilence is on to something, in a way it is an illusion, and the harder we squint our eyes to try and see what is not there, the more power the illusion has over us.
If we turn and look in the opposite direction the illusion will disappear, or at least we wont notice it anymore.

Quit feeding the illusion and it will leave you.

Thanks Janine, that was a good post but now I am a little scared.

You say that there is something wrong with our brain chemistry and our thoughts can turn that around.

I have gotten very very good at focusing my attention away from the dp/dr feeling but the nightmare won't go away. Is there a possibility that my brain chemistry is so screwed up that no amount of positive thinking will fix it? Is it possible to be doomed to this disorder forever?

It's as if we have taken an ALTERED and highly temporary state of consciousness and NAILED it into place as our default.

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Yeah and I seem to have lost my hammer, how do I get the nail out?

Janine, it's amazing how you seem to impress me with every post,how you continue to find news ways of explaining this! Bravo!

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Bravo Bravo!
Janine you are very helpfull, thanks!
I will buy your books as soon as I get some money.

Does this mean that everyone at some point or another experiences DP/DR it's just us that want to know "what was that" that continue to suffer while "normal" people just say "that was weird" and carry on?

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Good question SillyPutty.

No - there is NOT something Wrong with your brain chemistry.

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So if we change our thinking we will positively get better right?
Janine I am also wondering if you ever feel dp/dr yourself anymore?