Honestly, I don't think it's worse than schizophrenia; not at all.
Often what makes a schizophrenic's life an utter hell is precisely the fact that they do not know what they experience to be unreal.
I recall a story recently regarding a schizophrenic who murdered a policeman. The guy didn't know he was insane; he simply thought that the government were out to get him, that he'd be assassinated any moment, that people were all out to get him and so on.
He didn't know that these thoughts were unreal, no, but the fact that they were real to him
- that, in his experience, they may as well have been real - must have made things unbearable.
Not to mention that they can rarely work, are in permanent care, face enormous prejudice from others, struggle to do daily tasks and so on - and on top of that they have precious little chance of ever recovering.
I think we have it considerable better.
As for this,
Honestly, have you ever seen anyone on this board with schizophrenia?
I've seen quite a few - at least 2 or 3 - and I haven't been here that long.
Very often schizophrenics realize something's wrong with them as soon as they get on medication.
I guess just the fact that we are so overly aware and analytical of our conditions and always analyzing how we feel. That is what I was trying to say. If I was able to not think about how I feel, how I felt last week, how I am gonna feel in the future then I would be fine. But instead I think about how I feel 24/7. For example, I was watching a movie and picture how I would feel in that current situation that is on the screen. Or when I have to go to the bathroom, I picture how I will feel walking to the bathroom. Or if my friends ask me to go out, I picture how I am gonna feel at the bar. Or on Sunday night, when I have to go back to work the next morning, I think about how I am gonna feel at work. It sucks.
I can definitely relate to all this, and I know how bad it can get and how much it can affect how you think and feel. But don't lose sight of the fact that many of us, unlike someone with schizophrenia, have an excellent chance of recovering. We have potential to change and be "normal", in good time. Few of them do.