I was thinking about this today. I feel ok when I am not thinking about things and when I am busy, but then i start thinking about the really horrible times I had, and I can feel them start coming back to me. I was so upset at work today, becasue many times I go back and start thinking about how i felt those few times, and I'm so scared it will come back and never leave, and I will go insane. I just think "if I could stop thinking about this," but of course, that just makes it worse. Only when I can focus on other things and find distractions does it help. The interesting thing is that even thinking about the possibility that that feeling may come back I get really sad and feel like I need to cry. I dont' want to have that feeling, and I'm sure if I do...that feeling that my mind is too big, that I can't escape from my own thoughts, that I'm trapped in my head and thoughts, and that my brain is tingling, to use a efw descriptions...it will never leave me, even though it always had. I'm tired of just existing and want to truly "live" again, but that's hard to do with the fear and worry. I wish i could just get rid of this stupid ass fear and feeling in the back of my head, the sureness that it will come back and the fear, the horrible fear. Sorry to ramble on, but this has really been bothering me today. But yes, I think a lot of the problem is that we think about dp/dr WAY too much.
Is DP/DR only brought on by yourself?
A few weeks ago I was feeling really spacy, it has gotten a little better over time. I feel more aware of whats going on around me.
But what has been bothering me so much is do I bring DP/DR upon myself? Like is DP/DR all just based on if you think about it, can I do this all to myself?
Basically I am just so scared/depressed that this disorder is just being brought upon myself by thinking about it, and I am the only one who can make myself feel this way.
Like when I did marijuana it screwed me up, the next couple of days afterwards I felt out of it but no signs of anxiety really, but the night i did it i had lots of anxiety. I swear that the marijuana screwed up some of my brain chemicals and threw me into a cycle of anxiety.
But do you think that dp/dr can also be caused with out thinking about it or having anxiety? Like I am just curious to see if it will go away once i get my seourtin levels straight again, which im takign zoloft for. I hear that a lot of people react to anti-depressents though, and I know that I react rather strongly to zoloft.
Could dp/dr caused by marijuana be a chemical imbalance? I hope so I have never felt the same since i did it that night.
But what has been bothering me so much is do I bring DP/DR upon myself? Like is DP/DR all just based on if you think about it, can I do this all to myself?
Basically I am just so scared/depressed that this disorder is just being brought upon myself by thinking about it, and I am the only one who can make myself feel this way.
Like when I did marijuana it screwed me up, the next couple of days afterwards I felt out of it but no signs of anxiety really, but the night i did it i had lots of anxiety. I swear that the marijuana screwed up some of my brain chemicals and threw me into a cycle of anxiety.
But do you think that dp/dr can also be caused with out thinking about it or having anxiety? Like I am just curious to see if it will go away once i get my seourtin levels straight again, which im takign zoloft for. I hear that a lot of people react to anti-depressents though, and I know that I react rather strongly to zoloft.
Could dp/dr caused by marijuana be a chemical imbalance? I hope so I have never felt the same since i did it that night.
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