[orangeaid]

A few weeks ago I was feeling really spacy, it has gotten a little better over time. I feel more aware of whats going on around me.

But what has been bothering me so much is do I bring DP/DR upon myself? Like is DP/DR all just based on if you think about it, can I do this all to myself?

Basically I am just so scared/depressed that this disorder is just being brought upon myself by thinking about it, and I am the only one who can make myself feel this way.

Like when I did marijuana it screwed me up, the next couple of days afterwards I felt out of it but no signs of anxiety really, but the night i did it i had lots of anxiety. I swear that the marijuana screwed up some of my brain chemicals and threw me into a cycle of anxiety.

But do you think that dp/dr can also be caused with out thinking about it or having anxiety? Like I am just curious to see if it will go away once i get my seourtin levels straight again, which im takign zoloft for. I hear that a lot of people react to anti-depressents though, and I know that I react rather strongly to zoloft.

Could dp/dr caused by marijuana be a chemical imbalance? I hope so I have never felt the same since i did it that night.

 

[RedCaineForNova]

yeahh i agree with you, even though a big part of mine is due to some kind of anxiety (caused by a really potent weed brownie) i know i just think wayyyyy to much about certain things and i think if i can get over thinking too much ill be fine.

i ate the brownie in november and its kinda gona away but i got a concussion in june and it came back real intense. the doctors just say its post concussion syndrome

i have told my parents the way ive been feeling but i havent told them it was from the weed brownie and i didnt tell the doctors that either which i probly should have, im going to a therapist soon and ill deffinetly tell her.

i strongly think that it has alot to do with a chemical imbalance..and anxiety..even if you cant feel like your anxious it can still effect you inside.

 

[peaceboy23]

I was thinking about this today. I feel ok when I am not thinking about things and when I am busy, but then i start thinking about the really horrible times I had, and I can feel them start coming back to me. I was so upset at work today, becasue many times I go back and start thinking about how i felt those few times, and I'm so scared it will come back and never leave, and I will go insane. I just think "if I could stop thinking about this," but of course, that just makes it worse. Only when I can focus on other things and find distractions does it help. The interesting thing is that even thinking about the possibility that that feeling may come back I get really sad and feel like I need to cry. I dont' want to have that feeling, and I'm sure if I do...that feeling that my mind is too big, that I can't escape from my own thoughts, that I'm trapped in my head and thoughts, and that my brain is tingling, to use a efw descriptions...it will never leave me, even though it always had. I'm tired of just existing and want to truly "live" again, but that's hard to do with the fear and worry. I wish i could just get rid of this stupid ass fear and feeling in the back of my head, the sureness that it will come back and the fear, the horrible fear. Sorry to ramble on, but this has really been bothering me today. But yes, I think a lot of the problem is that we think about dp/dr WAY too much.

 

[Lilymoonchild]

Does thinking about dp cause dp, or does dp cause thinking about dp? It's kind of a pointless cycle to ponder, but as dps, ponder we will. I think it's a combo deal.
Once upon a time in therapy, my therapist kept telling me that I had a tape playing over and over in my head that told me I wasn't good enough, I wasn't smart enough, and dog-gonnit, people don't like me. He kept telling me to change the tape. I have to change the tape to say that I am worthwhile, I'm not crazy, I'm happy, blah blah blah and all that. "You have to change the tape to get better." "It's the tape that you keep playing in your head." "When that tape plays, you need to tell it to stop." "You need to make a tape that doesn't hurt you, but makes you better." Enough with the damn tape already! Wow, flashback....
Any way, somehow, and I wish I could tell you how, I figured out how to change the tape. The tape still sticks. I still get a loop going over and over and over in my head. I believe this is chemical, as anti-depressants do help improve it, and therapy doesn't so much. But what is on the tape, that has changed a fair amount. I don't tell myself what a messed up person I am any more. In other words: my tape player is a bit broken, but I'm the one who chooses which tape I have to listen to over and over and over again. If I focus on the dp, then it will be the "I have dp" tape playing my head. That tape tends to cause a lot of anxiety and distress, which causes me to focus more on my dp, which causes more anxiety and distress, which I often try to do without, cuz it just sucks. But if I'm not focusing on dp, I'm still focusing on something, because the focusing on things, that's just how I am. Make sense? I didn't think so.....

 

[gem]

I do not believe that we can bring dp/dr on. It is not something you are doing. It is not like a switch. It is something that happens in the brain for reasons we are not sure. We can try and understand why but no one truly knows. It can happen for many reasons. Illness, fear, anxiety, there are many things that bring on dp/dr. I do however believe that if one uses marijuanna this may bring it on so that I would say is a possibility that one had control over it.

gem.

 

[peacedove]

I have been pondering this question also... My therapist seems to think I cause my own DP although he doesn't say it straight out. I think the DP just happened to me without my control. I was thinking about God and infinity and stuff when I was 6 and that's when I had my first DP experience. I kept having episodes of it and then soon it was chronic and now here I am 23 and still trying to shake this 16 year long non-stop episode of DP.

I guess you could say I caused it myself by thinking about God, but I don't know...