I never thought I'd get to the point of being too afraid to fall asleep. I've always been so good at falling asleep and resting the whole night. I've only gotten two hours of sleep in the last two days. I've been contimplating reality more than i ever have. I used to ask myself, "why am i here, how are we thinking, what is this?" and i would feel completely "normal". Now, having typed that, i feel like i want to leave. No one actually understands how i feel. I can see how they understand where i'm coming from... but do they pretend they have to use the bathroom just to cry? Do they wake up at night too afraid to look at the time because is anything even real?