I decided to start a blog to share my personnal research, work and theories around DP/DR, anxiety and what is affecting us all on this forum. Of course, because it is personnal research and because I am not a psychiatrist and only a fellow sufferer, my articles will just provide unverified theories and no official work on the Depersonnalisation/Derealisation Disorder. But I'll try to do my best to provide the most accurate and right (in my own opinion tho) theories about the subject.
Some background
I guess in my first article, it's important to introduce myself and how I am related to DP/DR.
My name is Jonathan, I am actually 21 years old and live in France. As you may have noticed, english isn't my first language, so I apologize for the mistakes I may write, and I hope it doesn't bother you too much.
I had my first derealisation symptoms when I was around 16, and it started a few month after my firstreal breakup. It started by this irreality feeling, and soon, I started having intrusive thoughts and medical anxiety, revolving mainly around my sleep at this time. As the years passed, I managed to convince myself that DR is just how it feel to be a grown man, and I started having depersonnalisation symptoms as well. Again, I managed to convince myself that it was nothing, and I live with this disorder since then. I finally decided to do some research about it this summer, when I started having panic attacks everyday (after a breakup, again, yeah, I guess women dont like me). And that's where I am now.
Psychological DP
As you may have noticed, I haven't talked about drugs. It's because my DP wasn't triggered by drugs, like some of you, and because of this, I must apologize because most of my research and work will be on pure psychological depersonnalisation. But as I will explain in my next articles, I believe that most drug induced DP/DR are just psychological ones, triggered by substance abuses, so you may wanna look into them as well.
My theories
They revolve around anxiety, nevrosis and dissociative behavior. I'll explain in my next articles how all those things work with each others, how dissociative behavior work, and what cause the DP/DR. I will also try to find way to cure it, but I'll not focus too much on that because I am still not here (I'm still working on my own therapy). Basically, my theories explain that DP/DR come from high anxiety level, which come from a dissociative behavior you had during your life, which fed up your anxiety with bad emotions and unexpressed feelings.
In my next articles, I'll try to be as organised as possible, to avoid losing you!
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