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Hey there! Um, I'm not good at doing this things but it's been feeling pretty worse than before these days. Basically, I've been struggling with DP/DR since I was like 5 or 6 years old. I don't even remember how ''real'' life is, or how I used to see, feel and perceive things before this. I don't even know why or how this started.

I don't know if I'm high, drunk, asleep or in a movie and nothing feels real. The same symptoms than most of people I guess, so I prefer to be brief this time.

I'm also trying to talk to a therapist but I don't feel strong enough yet. I know I have to do it as soon as possible though.

Well, I thought it would be a good idea to join this forum since I don't have anyone who I can talk to about this out there. Anyway, I find quite hard expressing how I feel due to I also have a certain anxiety disorder and intrusive thoughts. I can't help thinking I'm victimizing myself when I talk about how I feel and how ''hard'' I. It's a constant battle with myself I guess.

I hope it'd be of help being in contact with people who really understands how it feels or people who share the same symptoms.

I hope I can be of help to other people as well.

Nice to meet you all.
 

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Hello, welcome here

5-6 years old seems quite young for dp/dr, it musn't be easy to have such a childhood and it must be even worse as a teenager.

Asking others for help is not victimizing yourself, when you need help you need help and need to accept that. The most important is to deal with anxiety, and to not obsess yourself with it. It's been a bit more than a year I have it so I can't really relate to your situation, considering you had it for an extented period of time (11-12 years), you might definetly need to see a psychiatrist, and you will probably have to try and take one to several medications such as antipsychotics for anxiety and / or antidepressants if you're feeling depressed.

You don't need to feel strong to talk to a psychiatrist, their job consist on focusing on people's weaknesses so there's no shame talking to one whatever your problems are. To be frank you don't seem like a weak person, but you seem afraid of being seen as such by opening yourself / revealing your feelings. The paradox is, if don't open yourself to a certain extent, you end up hurting and destroying yourself.

It's also important to keep active / make good and open relations with your friends, and family (though I know that's not always as easy).

Take care.
 

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Hi Flor! This is a great place to go if you are looking for support.

Seeing a therapist can make all of the difference. Be sure to find one that understands dissociation.

Also, meds can do wonders. It's hard to find the right one but when you do, it can help a lot. It can even mean recovery.

I notice my symptoms get really bad when I am off my meds (usually because I forget to refill) or I miss a few sessions of therapy.
 

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I've had chronic DPD since the age of 7. I can't either remember much how I felt. But the memory of wish I got it is clear.

I can't help thinking I'm victimizing myself when I talk about how I feel and how ''hard'' I. It's a constant battle with myself I guess.
It's the same for me when talking to my family and friends. And "I'm not feeling real" does kind of sound like whining I guess. "Just do something that makes you feel alive?"

However I was put into a mental hospital for suicide prevention and drug abuse. And while there I met a lot of people. Mostly drug addicts but what I noticed was that

they were really open talking about their problems and life experiences. And I've always liked listening to that. It makes you not think about your own problems.

Also i just find it interesting. Point being I think finding a friend that can relate. Doesn't need to be someone with DPD but just someone that has had it difficult themselves

can help a lot. In matter of fact it has helped me much more than any psychiatrist I've met.
 

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Hi,

5 years old is a very young age to have DP. What kind of intrusive thoughts are you having? And maybe more important, what about your everyday experience in life makes you feel "different" from everyone else?
 

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Hey there! Um, I'm not good at doing this things but it's been feeling pretty worse than before these days. Basically, I've been struggling with DP/DR since I was like 5 or 6 years old. I don't even remember how ''real'' life is, or how I used to see, feel and perceive things before this. I don't even know why or how this started.

I don't know if I'm high, drunk, asleep or in a movie and nothing feels real. The same symptoms than most of people I guess, so I prefer to be brief this time.

I'm also trying to talk to a therapist but I don't feel strong enough yet. I know I have to do it as soon as possible though.

Well, I thought it would be a good idea to join this forum since I don't have anyone who I can talk to about this out there. Anyway, I find quite hard expressing how I feel due to I also have a certain anxiety disorder and intrusive thoughts. I can't help thinking I'm victimizing myself when I talk about how I feel and how ''hard'' I. It's a constant battle with myself I guess.

I hope it'd be of help being in contact with people who really understands how it feels or people who share the same symptoms.

I hope I can be of help to other people as well.

Nice to meet you all.
Cheers, i've had DP/DR as long as i can remember.

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