[Grindelwald]

Hello everyone,

My name is Drew, I'm 21 and just finished college. My experience from DP/DR started early this year. I had some bad "trips" on marijuana, one also involving alcohol where I blacked out and wound up in the hospital. The couple weeks following that hospital visit were the worst of my DP/DR. The post-alcohol anxiety just left me feeling panicky and miserable. I would have trouble sleeping, would need NyQuil or Benadryl in order to fall asleep and often when I would wake up I'd feel like I was in an unfamiliar and unreal place, and I'd get freaked out. Things did improve for me. I was able to start exercising again and eating healthy. I stayed away from binge drinking and didn't dare smoke weed anymore. I've had kind of a two-steps-forward-one-step-back type of recovery since and right now the DR just kind of comes and goes and it's not terrible when it is there. It's been a little worse today. The panicky feelings subsided a while ago, when the DR does hit me it's usually in the form of existential thoughts or just OCD questioning of the reality of the world around me. I probably should have joined this place sooner as I think it's a great way to help recover and realize you're not alone in these feelings.

 

[106473]

That isn't DR, that's anxiety by the sound of it. DR is when things look 2D or fake.

It does not sound that intense, but i am only going of a paragraph which is nothing to base anything, all i can say is stay of drugs ANYTHING will spike anxiety, lower the anxiety, live well and come back in 6 months if you need to but for god sake, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE

never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever touch Benadryl again, if you want a reason google "DXM" and realise it's an abused drug that FU[Redacted]S you up (first time i swore on DPSH) but I need to get this into you. I OD'd on the terrible stuff, lets just say, you'll go to hospital and many things will go wrong. If you use it nightly it messes with the cholinergic receptors, which you very much need for memory and to string a sentence.

 

[Grindelwald]

I'm sure I don't have it as bad as a lot of people on here. But it did affect my life and leave me with feelings of hopelessness many times. Maybe it is more DP than DR. I had adhedonia and feelings that I was living a lie, for no real reason. I've made great progress this past week and I'm having trouble remembering exactly what the DP and DR was like at its worst, I just know it was hell and I never want to go through it again.

I've never abused Benadryl, nor do I use it much anymore at this point as I no longer have much trouble sleeping. It sounds like a bad thing to abuse, I would never do it.

 

[Grindelwald]

So an update on me. DP is not completely gone, but I know I'm close. Never smoking THC again. It's more dangerous than our society makes it out to be. My self identity is coming back. Hopefully no setbacks.

 

[106473]

Sounds like you are on the right path! good news!