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Through all I have been through since last November, Depression, Anxiety , DP/DR General Anxiety Disorder.
Heart Palpatations and the worst Indigestion in the world, Through all of this I find an interesting observation.

The observation is the shifting of symptoms, physical and mental symptoms. Sometimes it reminds me of the story about the Dutch boy putting his finger in the holes in the **** to stop the flooding. You get one stopped and the next hole bursts open.

I just wish my mind had a fast rewind tape and erase button. I would quickly rewind to the time before this all started and blow the rest of the Crap away.

Too Easy, but it would be nice if they could figure out a way to erase all tof this crap and just keep the good stuff.

I keep feeling like death warmed over of late... The palpatations or Pre Ventrical Contractions of my heart which the Doc says is harmless, has taken front and center stage along with this terriable indigestion. I didn't want to go Get the EGD done, but as bad as I have been feeling I guess I will let them scope me.. I am so fearful of being sedated for some reason.... I think Lack of control, or fear of loosing control , or dying... or something...

The simple thing is , I really have so many things to be thankful for , why do I continue to feel slightly depressed and anxious. I feel like a car spinning its wheels on the ice.
 

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I love that analogy about trying to stop the leak!! That is exactly what it's like. You go from one symptom to the next. Try to accept them. Make a decision to believe that there is NOTHING seriously wrong with you and you will go on to enjoy your life!!

And I had a fear of going under to. I think because you know once you're under you don't have control anymore.I used to worry I would have a bad dream and not be able to wake up. But let's look at the reality, is it safe?YEP.Or they wouldnt let us do it. Nothing can happen during that time that will have any perment effect on you.

Good Luck, lifting you up.
 

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Shake It Off Stomp It Down Step Up . . . . . . . . . . .Bill Denton

A parable is told of a farmer whose mule fell into an abandoned well. After numerous unsuccessful attempts to get the mule out of the well, the farmer decided it was a hopeless situation. With sadness, the farmer figured that the only humane thing to do would be to haul truckloads of dirt to bury the old mule, while filling in the dangerous well, at the same time.

He backed up the truck, and began to shovel in the dirt. The old mule, however, went berserk when the first load of dirt hit its back. That old mule started shaking off the dirt, stomping it down and stepping up a bit. Shovel full after shovel full caused the mule to shake off the dirt and firmly stomp it down. Truckload after truckload, the old mule repeated the same process. It shook off the dirt, stomped it down and stepped up a bit. Little by little, that mule was lifting itself out of the hole.

No matter how distressing the situation seemed, the old mule fought off panic when it realized that no matter how much was dumped on its back all it had to do was shake it off, stomp it down and step up. And, guess what? It wasn't too long before the old mule, battered and exhausted, triumphantly stepped out of the well.

Have you ever noticed that there are different ways people have of dealing with the problems life dumps on them? If we respond to our problems positively, and refuse to panic, or fall further into bitterness and despair, the adversities that come along to bury us usually contain within them the potential to benefit and bless us! Rather than burying us, the adversities and criticisms can make us better, lifting us up, bit by bit.
 
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Did you ask your doctor to you let you try a PPI first before making you undergo a procedure. Coming from somebody who works in the GI field, the majority of EGDs show nothing but reflux and inflammation and then they wind up putting you on a PPI anyway. If you aren't having any other problems such as difficulty swallowing or hematemesis (throwing up blood) don't let them push you into having one done. If they don't want to let you try a PPI first, PM me with your address, and I will send you some myself. Take care of yourself
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Hey thanks for the support.. I am going for the initial consultation with the Gastro Doc tomorrow, I am going to tell him I really don't want to do the EGD without doing first what you are suggesting. Because you are right, The only symptoms I have , is after a meal , I get the sour stomach, belching , bloating and pressure, and then I get PVCs . I don't throw up blood, I don't even throw up, I don't have Dark Stool . SOmetimes I wake up like 4:30 in the morning feeling like the food is still just sitting on my stomach.

So anyway I will go consult with this guy and see what happens from there. I really appreciate your help in understanding that this is probably nothing serrious.

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i don't trust gastro docs, but i guess that's cause my dad is one

j/k I was just joking. good luck with your exam.

(my dad is the exception not the rule...he'll just tell you you're allergic to wheat, which is apparently the root of the universe's problems)
 

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Thanks for you help, so your Dad is a doc... Well there probably is a lot of stuff that isn't good for us that we eat and are allergic to.

I shouldn't get so anxious about this stuff ,but I do..... some times ( a lot of times) I think I am a big wimp.. I see people like at work , it is like they don't get scared they just do these procedures and tests without worry.

Thanks for the luck,, I could use it

KC
 
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I don't think that it is the test we are afraid of. I think it is the actual sedation or anesthesia that is used. Here is an example, my gallbladder needs to be taken. I have joked with the surgeon to just numb the area and cut it out. I would rather be awake through the entire process than be put under. Maybe it is a control thing because we seem to lack any control over our own feelings. I don't know just a thought.
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yes I agree, it is the fear of sedation and or being under . I just don't like it.. Mine goes back to when I was 4 and had my tonsils out , I can still see the little screen they put over my face to drip ether into.... I hope sometime I can get over this.
 
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It is actually done laparoscopic but they still need to use general anesthesia. I guess for now, I will just grin and bare it, because I am being a big chicken.
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Add me to the big chickens club, ha. I keep waiting to hear from the surgeon every day when to come in for pretests so they can schedule my surgery. I guess it's semi-major, have to be admitted (thats the part I hate also)..but I've done it b-4 by God I'll do it again. Things will be better in a few weeks and I will have yet another surgery story to tell, and another scar, yippeee. Feel like I'm in limbo waiting though, anxiety prolly worse for that reson too. Anyway you aren't alone. And KC yes get some meds first..if they work then it can be a diagnosis backwards, you know?
 
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