Victor Ouriques· Registered
Long time without being here... 2 years I think. I had a major setback, never dropped so many tears in so little time, idk how I got so fucked up out of nowhere, and this topic got my attention, will try it probably in the C3, C6 area, I know a ton of anesthesiologists here in my city in Brazil, they all said it's a pretty simple procedure to do. My history is pretty close to OP, got it in 2011, I was 15, now I'm 22, still dealing with this. Had good days, amazing days, days without it, months without it, months meds free, and now I feel like a bubble of anxiety/derealization and dp/panic sometimes. Might be due to my GABA receptors being fried since I've been taking Klonopin since 2011 (some months of break but nothing too big, even though I think the best part of my "dr'ed life was 2014 when I was benzo free". Used to "heal" my dr, now I need to take it so I don't fucking freak out or feel like I'm in another world. Oh how I fucking hate this disease. Destroyed my teenage years and it keeps leeching everything from me. I'd rather be shot in both hands and have scars in them in and be free from this forever. 7 years is too much already. If this doesn't work then well, fuck it. Will have to finally accept that I'll live (survive) this way forever.