I know this, very well. And if I think that the other thing is what I must do, then I can't keep it up.I will even start doing work that isn't t what i have to get done
"Must". A powerful word. "I must do this". I think that for some people it works like a map, and for some other, it works like an undesirable obligation. Or maybe it's connected to a bad psychological condition.
...I do those stupid things, without the "amazing interest"Scattered said:Anytime I have a paper to write, a test to study for, or just any general unpleasant task that has to get accomplished I"ll literally look for the stupidest thing to catch my attention so I don't have to work. I'll go have something to eat, get coffee, play a videogame, watch a TV show that I normally find boring and pointless with amazing interest.
Motive is dead.
I should be studying to get my degree on economics.
I should memorize what people say to me, instead of thinking of nothing is important (I am forgeting).
I should be more trusting, especially with women.
I should be patient.
I should tidy up the house.
I should learn how to use that computer program.
I am trimming a few other things that I do and don't, in order not to cause a "depression" condition to my self (selfist).