[enna]

Hi!
I am new, so i hope im posting this in the correct place. I just feel very hopeless and need help. A few days ago I had the weirdest feeling. To give you some background info, ive experienced dp before many times, and the past 2 weeks have been very hard for me. Ending my previous medication and starting a new one, has been a tough ride so far. I have ocd, agoraphobia and GAD. But these past 2 weeks, daily panic attacks and constant crying have been stuck with me.

So. I was scrolling thru pictures of my boyfriend, who I am doing long distance with. We have never met. I got this super weird feeling. I suddenly got a bit dizzy, and it felt like I got hyperaware of everything. My head was like "This is my boyfriend??" "He is real??". It also sort of felt like deja vu in a way. I freaked out and instantly though "now im losing my mind, its psychosis, I am losing control". The dizziness stayed and I had this intense feeling that any moment I will snap and go insane. It went away after I got distracted and didnt think about it. This happened 2 days ago, and ever since I have been very afraid and aware of all my sensations. I was afraid before too, because I was worried I will have a heart attack, but it turned into mental worry.
I am so worried that this is it, I am in a psychosis, and I will do something awful. Ever since this happened I have been afraid to talk to my boyfriend, in the fear of it happening again. I tried explaining it to him, but he does not understand mental health struggles.
I have had similar feelings before, I remember looking at me and my bestfriends pictures, and thinking "She is real?" "She has a life and is a real human being??". It wasnt as intense, but similar feeling.

I desperately need help. I have therapy in a few days, but I'd appreciate help from here too. Do you think this is the result of intense anxiety that has been going for a few weeks. Or am I just losing my mind?

 

[enna]

Hi!
I am new, so i hope im posting this in the correct place. I just feel very hopeless and need help. A few days ago I had the weirdest feeling. To give you some background info, ive experienced dp before many times, and the past 2 weeks have been very hard for me. Ending my previous medication and starting a new one, has been a tough ride so far. I have ocd, agoraphobia and GAD. But these past 2 weeks, daily panic attacks and constant crying have been stuck with me.

So. I was scrolling thru pictures of my boyfriend, who I am doing long distance with. We have never met. I got this super weird feeling. I suddenly got a bit dizzy, and it felt like I got hyperaware of everything. My head was like "This is my boyfriend??" "He is real??". It also sort of felt like deja vu in a way. I freaked out and instantly though "now im losing my mind, its psychosis, I am losing control". The dizziness stayed and I had this intense feeling that any moment I will snap and go insane. It went away after I got distracted and didnt think about it. This happened 2 days ago, and ever since I have been very afraid and aware of all my sensations. I was afraid before too, because I was worried I will have a heart attack, but it turned into mental worry.
I am so worried that this is it, I am in a psychosis, and I will do something awful. Ever since this happened I have been afraid to talk to my boyfriend, in the fear of it happening again. I tried explaining it to him, but he does not understand mental health struggles.
I have had similar feelings before, I remember looking at me and my bestfriends pictures, and thinking "She is real?" "She has a life and is a real human being??". It wasnt as intense, but similar feeling.

I desperately need help. I have therapy in a few days, but I'd appreciate help from here too. Do you think this is the result of intense anxiety that has been going for a few weeks. Or am I just losing my mind?

Id also like to add, as I am thinking about my boyfriend, I am having really uncomfy feelings. Like this uncomfy dizzy feeling going thru my body and stomach feeling like a knot. Why? I love my boyfriend so dearly. Is this a sign of psychosis? What is going on? I am so afraid

 

[enna]

pleasd someone helpp

 

[marduk]

Hi

I read your post and everything you describe sounds like severe anxiety and panic attacks with some dissosiation in the mix. Anxiety and panic are one of the most common causes for feelings of unreality. Its very common for people to think that the weird sensations are a sign of psychosis and quite often these fears further amplify the feelings. Of all The people i have talked to with dpdr almost all of then misintrerpret the symptoms as early skizofrenia or something similar but i havent met a single person who actually got psychosis from these symptoms. Crazy people dont know they are crazy. Hopefully the theraphy will be helpful but it sounds like severe anxiety are upholding the weird thoughts and sensations.

 

[NoDevils]

You should accept your feelings and anxieties instead of hiding from your boyfriend and worrying that they indicate a psychosis.

Talk to your therapist about your concerns of going insane and develop some kind of a plan. This is sometimes referred to as a safety plan.

 

[enna]

update!!
my therapist quite literally laughed at my fears, which made me feel a lot better. I believe my anxiety has spread to my relationship, which I will try to work on. But after my session I feel so much better already!