[Zpgrimm]

Hello All,

I hope everyone is having a great Sunday. Does anyone ever get to a place where they feel like every second of the day is a living hell? Lately I've been struggling with the whole time distortion thing where time seems to be going really fast. Everything seems so unbearable and I feel like I'm going going crazy. I'm also feeling like I don't want to do anything, really nothing, no connection to anything. Let me know if you've ever felt this way.

Thanks,

Zach

 

[Findmywayhome]

Yes. I get so caught up in trying to function normally sometimes I sit back and wonder, why the fuck is this happening to me? what the fuck even is this? What am I even doing anymore? Should I even bother trying? It feels like I cant take another minute of this, it is just so damn confusing I cant put it into words.

With all that said though. I find it magical that I still find these inexplicable desires to do certain things. I'm incredibly dissociated so its confusing to me how my brain can even faciliate desires. My parents got me this electric piano for christmas, and Ive been able to reap some enjoyment out of it. I also kind of just play video games all day. A big part of my routine was looking forward to going to sleep. But now that 30 minutes of lying awake with my eyes closed trying to drift off is pure torture-- my DPDR just completely floods my thoughts and awareness.

 

[leminaseri]

Yes. I get so caught up in trying to function normally sometimes I sit back and wonder, why the fuck is this happening to me? what the fuck even is this? What am I even doing anymore? Should I even bother trying? It feels like I cant take another minute of this, it is just so damn confusing I cant put it into words.

With all that said though. I find it magical that I still find these inexplicable desires to do certain things. I'm incredibly dissociated so its confusing to me how my brain can even faciliate desires. My parents got me this electric piano for christmas, and Ive been able to reap some enjoyment out of it. I also kind of just play video games all day. A big part of my routine was looking forward to going to sleep. But now that 30 minutes of lying awake with my eyes closed trying to drift off is pure torture-- my DPDR just completely floods my thoughts and awareness.

i think youre going a good way! i believe you will recover!