Man, you gotta stay away from the weed and really try to monitor the alcohol...especially when you are feeling as bad as you have been. You know that weed has been known to cause DP in many, many people, so you know its only gonna make you worse and alcohol is one of the biggest known depressants, so you know thats gonna make you worse.
You can't expect to feel better if you keep poisoning yourself and adding to the symptoms!
spaceplex... you say you won't go inpatient cuz that's just crazy... but then you take pills, drink, and smoke weed all at the same time. What was the name of the pill you took for your back? I don't mean to be a hypocrite... cuz I have my drinking days too. But I guess I can think more logically about things when they are happening to someone else rather than myself.
You might want to reconsider all this. Are you at least getting outpatient counseling?? Maybe you don't need to be an inpatient. But I can tell you are suffering a whole lot so I hope you have a therapist or someone to talk to. Not just a psychiatrist that hands out meds, but someone to really listen to you and lead you in the right direction.
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