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Hello!

TL;DR at the bottom.

I'm Alex, 20 years old, and I hate DP/DR as much as any of you. A self inflicted wound of marijuana induced DP/DR has drastically altered my life.

I'm now depressed, have horrible anxiety, and zero energy. But 2 years of debilitating DP/DR gave me one thing. A purpose to live!

If I can help further research being done on this cruel and unforgiving condition, to save even one person's life or to make it better, I'll endure a life-time of DP/DR hell.

Nobody deserves this. I'm working on my own solution to get over my DP/DR however, everyone's brain is different and reacts differently to different treatments.

I've ruled out serotonin deficiencies as SSRI's didn't work for me. SNRI's to increase norepinephrine. Not much effect. I'm currently on 450 mg of Wellbutrin daily, a norepinephrine and dopamine reuptake inhibitor. It's only been a week, but I can say it has more of an effect on norepinephrine than dopamine. The next level, which I'm trying to avoid if Wellbutrin doesn't work, are amphetamines to increase dopamine levels even higher. I do not recommend any of these medications and you should only use what your doctor feels is appropriate. Be aware of benzodiazepines. I unknowingly took a high dose of Ativan after an ER doc gave me a script. Very dangerous levels of lowered inhibitions and complete amnesia of 4 days were the results. I'm very lucky to be alive considering my roommates told me I drove whilst the drug was in my system. Always ask your doc about associated risks and the most appropriate starting dose when starting new medications.

I'll be going to college next semester to begin studying psychopharmacology. DP/DR has destroyed my life almost entirely. For some reason, I now feel like I have a moral obligation to try and alleviate people with these disorders. I'll be back in 4 years after I complete my studies, but I'll try to start research somewhere sooner in that time-frame. It seems like a long time, but if I can hold out for 4 years, you can too. Hell, our DP/DR will probably be gone by then! Even though it's excruciatingly fatiguing to think positively, it does help! ????

Feel free to message me if you have any questions, concerns, or harmful thoughts. We're in this together, and I'll be here for as many people as I can.

TL;DR:
2 years of drug induced DP and DR really suck, but it gave me a purpose in life; to pursue a career researching this condition. I pray to God everyday I'll find a cure, a treatment, or something that alleviates this horrible disorder, not for myself, but for those who are at their wits end battling this war. Know I'll be on the frontlines fighting for all of you, so do me a favor, hang in there and have hope.????
 

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Good to hear that you found motivation despite, or rather because of, the suffering. Good luck in your endeavor.
 
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