After 12 years of this crap I'm finally gonna check myself into a hospital. The past few months have been hell normally I can manage my depersonalisation but since my mirtazipine fucked up its made me feel like im going insane! I have cried on the phone today to a mental health person I feel like no one can help me no more! I desperately want to be strong for my little boy and my husband. I feel so alone at the moment ????