[Guest]

I usually dont post about how bad I feel.
Has any of you ever felt like you feel you are dying inside?
Or want to die? (want the pain to stop)
Like everything you feel is too much to handle and
you feel you are dying inside?
What is that? I never felt it to this extent. The area around my stomache and belly feels so vulnerable, I can hardly touch it or bear any contact
with it.

Im taking meds now to try and regulate it a bit.

 

[Homeskooled]

Aw, now your making me sad too Wendy I think your feeling the kind of pain I used to get alot - its like a loneliness of the soul. The pit of your stomach has a burning sensation, like its burning with a desire for love and an end to the emotional misery. Your soul just feels achy and tired. Dont worry, it'll pass. But you should try to be arond people you care about while you feel this way. It'll lessen the pain a bit. Dont worry, I'm thinking of you!

Peace
Homeskooled

 

[Guest]

dont be scared- are you currently on regulated meds?? dont self medicate.always talk to your dr. about that. WEndy-it's TODAY that matters.hahaha. OKAY i know you dont want to hear anything positive right now---and it sounds like you are feeling very bad. I am sorry you feel this way. we are thinking of you on the forum.--today :wink:

 

[gem]

Wendy I am sorry you are feeling so down. Has anything upset you recently, have you had a loss or some kind of upset that could make you feel the pain you are in? I know it is painful to already be in dp/dr and I truly understand and sympathize with you. The heartwrenching pain that you are describing can be caused by depression but sometimes can be due to something very upsetting. I know myself I am under alot of pain with grief right now and I get that awful feeling in my stomach. I think it is good that you reached out for support. Sometimes one can feel this way and not know why. What is important is not going through this by yourself, we are here and we all care. All of us know what it feels like to be feeling very sad. Keep reaching out and hopefully just by expressing your feelings you will start to feel a bit better. I hope you feel better soon.

gem.

gem.

 

[Guest]

How horrible this feels.
Wendy I've had these feelings.Not lately but when I first got dp.
My stomach would get a weak,nervous sensation.
I also hat a lot of gut dysfunction.I still do when I'm anxious or depressed.

I wish I knew what to suggest.
Is it possible that distraction might help?try and do things that are fun or enjoyable in some way.
My coping skills are very basic.I just keep busy.I try to focus on anything but myself.
I don't know if this ever cures anything.I guess it's one way of trying to manage the anxiety and fear.

Please feel better soon.
We would all love to see you have some happiness in life I'm sure you will again

 

[Guest]

Homeskooled your post made me cry and Today, your post made me laugh.

But Homeskooled that is spot on what you say. Im tired of the emotional struggle and ache and loneliness I feel. I feel a need for love and care, but usually dont ask for it, afraid to do that.
But Im glad I did by writing my post. Thanks for understanding.

Today, I have something positive for today, will post it in your Positives thread. I use the meds on prescrition and in consult with my psychiatrist, so thats all ok but thanks :wink:

Gem, Im learning to ask for support when feeling bad and not try to handle it all alone, as I almost always do, which keeps me lonely.
Glad you as well can relate to the pain and grief and the awfull feeling in your stomach. Good to know Im not alone in that.

Im touched by all your posts and feel a bit better already.
Thanks :wink:

 

[Guest]

Shelly, the down side for me with keeping focussed and busy, is that I run past my pain. When its there, I need to take care of it.
With anxiety it helps, but with sadness it doesnt really help me, then I need to make contact with what I feel inside, otherwise I start feeling worse, if that makes sense?
I did something enjoyable today, as a distraction and to put the destructive force into something creative.

Gem I forgot. The bad stuff comes from issues Im dealing with in my therapy. Take care.

Thanks again.

 

[ret]

yep, I feel dead inside all the time, as if I have no soul.

great isn't it?

 

[Guest]

ok ok we all know how bad we feel inside why do we always post about it, seriously post something, with all do respect its depressing to hear that stuff, This board is just full of depressing posts, ever since i got hear all i hear is my life is a nightmare, and i cant take it anymore... Why? whats the point? Most people here feel like that alot, i guess what im trying to say is i wish there were more positivity and less moaning

 

[Guest]

Johnny Utah, it was quite good to share how I feel and get a chance to relate to others and feel better. Note that I said that I usually DONT ask for support or am open when I feel bad. So this is an important post to me.
Dont be too quick to judge.
For positives you can go to Today's Positives-thread.

 

[Guest]

alright

 

[terri*]

I appreciate you understand Wendy's position.

terri

 

[terri*]

Hi Wendy,

I have certainly felt the hole in my chest and have also likened it to losing my soul. I am really not sure if I have a feeling of a soul right now. It comes and goes. Love and good feelings do seem to bring it nearer to the surface. It is such an empty feeling and it can be overwhelming and depressing. And then you can look up to see something beautiful, like the other day when I saw a sonogram of my grandaughter to be, and I felt my soul soar for hours. It will come back to you, Wendy. Don't give up hope on it. Okay?

Most Sincerely,
terri

 

[gem]

Johnny. it would be wonderful if we could post how happy we feel all the time even if we do not. This board is here to help everyone whether they feel good or bad we are all here to help each other. Yes there may be days when all of us are struggling but it is okay. We support each other. One day you may feel down and someone will help you up. One of the wonderful things about this site is that most of us understand how we all feel. We may not be understood out there and by coming here it helps so much because you actually feel a part of something. I personally believe this site is absolutely wonderful. When others are sad I do not look at it as depressing I look at it as my chance to try and help somone who is struggling in the moment. If I helped a little then my being here is worthwhile. If we all came here and pretended we felt good when we did not we would only be fooling ourselves. I understand how you feel and you have the right to express how you feel, for me though I consider myself very lucky to be with people who truly care about one another whether they be up or down.

gem.

 

[Guest]

Working through the pain I feel has a pay off.
Today Ive noticed a change in my DP. I feel a realness to myself and my surroundings that I have not perceived before.
Im very happy with it. Lets hope this is a start and that it will continue to go this direction.

Thanks again for all your support here.