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Just wanted to let you know here's again one example of dp-recovery. By recovery I mean I am no longer dp'ed 24/7; I still feel the fog when I'm tired at work (which happens quite often as I am no early bird and I stay awake in the early hours). But I know the mechanism now and I know how to be without tuning in, so I don't care about occasional dp, as I know it will pass..

I already wrote something about my recovery under the luke1979's title "alcohol". For me the insight how to get rid of it happened little by little. For a couple of weeks I was working in a nite shift and got home after 10pm. I had become torpid that I felt very dp'ed in the work, maybe as I was stressing more about it then. I didn't allow myself to feel dp'ed at work as much as at home. The same applied with my friends; dp annoyed me more when I was spending time with them (maybe I was scared that everybody would eventually dump me as they would notice I had become weird), and I didn't stress about it that much when I was by myself.

So to some extent I had conditioned myself to feel very dp'ed at work, and then I'd totally relax when I went home after the nite shift. I started to feel less dp'ed in the evenigs at home and little by little I got use to that "habit". A specific time, a specific place, and I'd feel less dp'ed.

The next step was the Saturday nite out with my friends (which I told about at the "alcohol"-discussion), when I for the first time felt totally dp-free. I had decided not to be scared of dp, but to allow myself to feel that way. So I didn't try to force myself not to think about, I only decided not to obsess about it for one single nite. I would have fun with/in spite of the feeling, and I would't check if it's still there even one time during the nite.

Then it happened, I was dancing at the dance floor when I suddenly realized I felt everything.

Well, that was actually all I needed, I started believing it was me creating the feeling, I had power over it and yea, it really was possible to get over it. To believe you can get better is the trick.

Okey, now I have to admit it's not entirely true "I don't care about dp anymore", as I still struggle with obsessive thinking and anxiety (that I though was secondary to dp, but now I realize it was anxiety that was behind dp). I also have joined to the "existentialism/mortality club" - sudden abstract thoughts about the universe and fears of death, a result of anxiety as well I suppose. But it was funny how I always tought dp was the one and only problem, and after I had solved it I'd live happy ever after. Still have long way to go before total recovery...
 

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Just wanted to let you know here's again one example of dp-recovery. By recovery I mean I am no longer dp'ed 24/7; I still feel the fog when I'm tired at work (which happens quite often as I am no early bird and I stay awake in the early hours). But I know the mechanism now and I know how to be without tuning in, so I don't care about occasional dp, as I know it will pass..

I already wrote something about my recovery under the luke1979's title "alcohol". For me the insight how to get rid of it happened little by little. For a couple of weeks I was working in a nite shift and got home after 10pm. I had become torpid that I felt very dp'ed in the work, maybe as I was stressing more about it then. I didn't allow myself to feel dp'ed at work as much as at home. The same applied with my friends; dp annoyed me more when I was spending time with them (maybe I was scared that everybody would eventually dump me as they would notice I had become weird), and I didn't stress about it that much when I was by myself.

So to some extent I had conditioned myself to feel very dp'ed at work, and then I'd totally relax when I went home after the nite shift. I started to feel less dp'ed in the evenigs at home and little by little I got use to that "habit". A specific time, a specific place, and I'd feel less dp'ed.

The next step was the Saturday nite out with my friends (which I told about at the "alcohol"-discussion), when I for the first time felt totally dp-free. I had decided not to be scared of dp, but to allow myself to feel that way. So I didn't try to force myself not to think about, I only decided not to obsess about it for one single nite. I would have fun with/in spite of the feeling, and I would't check if it's still there even one time during the nite.

Then it happened, I was dancing at the dance floor when I suddenly realized I felt everything.

Well, that was actually all I needed, I started believing it was me creating the feeling, I had power over it and yea, it really was possible to get over it. To believe you can get better is the trick.

Okey, now I have to admit it's not entirely true "I don't care about dp anymore", as I still struggle with obsessive thinking and anxiety (that I though was secondary to dp, but now I realize it was anxiety that was behind dp). I also have joined to the "existentialism/mortality club" - sudden abstract thoughts about the universe and fears of death, a result of anxiety as well I suppose. But it was funny how I always tought dp was the one and only problem, and after I had solved it I'd live happy ever after. Still have long way to go before total recovery...
 

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you've really cheered me up :roll:
 

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you've really cheered me up :roll:
 
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