You and I sound like we have a lot in common. I have anxiety and DP/DR pretty much 24/7. The problem started on October 27, 1994, after I consumed 3 caffeine pills (Vivarin), had a 12 hour long panic attack as a result and ended up in the ER the following day around Noon.spaceplex1111 said:I think i have schizophrenia!! I'm never going to get "normal" again.. All i do is think about sh*t to the point i feel unreal. I cant concentrate on things because I'm crazy.
I feel like I'm in a dream or in a movie. I feel like I'm going to trip out. I'm going to be lost.
I have constant panic 24/7...
Ill i do is look up sh*t online, i read all this sh*t and i have all of it.
I keep thinking about the original situation and how badly I wish I could go back and change.
A book I'd recommend for you is "Wherever You Go, There You Are".
Do you work? I do, but barely. I keep thinking about how highly functional I was prior to the day I swallowed those Vivarin. My quality of life has been next to zero for more than a decade.
I'm lost. I have no idea how to reclaim my old self. I might as well have died after taking the Vivarin because 10 years later I'm still constantly psychologically paralyzed and incapacitated.
CBT and medications won't come close to alleviating/resolving the symptoms. I've spent thousands of dollars trying to figure out what's wrong with me, and to no avail. It's frustrating, depressing, etc.
