Just going through the motions. Starting to notice a lot more substituded dialogue here and there (this may be how people drive themselves to schizophrenia?). You don't think I know what the world was like before this started happening? I know how ridiculous it sounds. I'm not the only one who realized this, and the people who don't understand it yet play a big part in torturing those that do, even if they don't mean to. The torture is the question left unanswered. No medicine or therapy can ever fix that. I now accept it. I just don't want to care anymore. I'd rather feel like I've lost to it than to feel that there is a chance to feel 'normal' again, even if it's in our nature to wish it all away. If you understood it, you would know why it can't be beaten or ignored. Call it what you will, but this is the hell that's been talked about for centuries. It's all here. Down to the very last chamber.
Psalm 88:12
"... a place of darkness, silence and forgetfulness"
